Poetry4Teens

Sound of Madness

2012-01-19T20:19:00.002-07:00

by Ashley

Inside my heart is the sound of chaos that worsens by every second I think of you. This pain I call my friend breaks me down, pulls me into a ball, as I scream in agony. I’m lost in all this destruction. I cannot see. Am I blind? NO, I refuse to believe these LIES!!! But...are these things lies? Maybe they are the TRUTH. I fall over on my back as you hold my arms down. I feel the sharp cold knife of abandonment plunge into what once held my heart. Millions of freezing hands cover my body. I CAN’T BREATHE!! Someone help me? I’m nothing but a shell with no shell. Everything that I once loved is slipping away with every tear that pushes its way out of my eyes. I scream so loud but no one hears me. My tears turn into blood. The darkness clouds over me. My heart is exposed by the torn skin. A hundred tiny silver hooks surround my heart. It’s so cold. The tiny hooks jerk back and my heart spills and the only thing I can do is scream and cry in terrible pain. WHY AM I STILL ALIVE!!!!!! My old friend pain starts to overtake my being... Suddenly I break free of these invisible forces holding me down and fire fills my eyes. I was not wrong. Pain, misery, destruction, and agony were always there for me. They always held my hand. When I held a knife to my wrist they were there to push it through. When I cried they turned my tears into blood. If I was ever happy they reminded me that happiness was a guiltless twisted LIE. Happiness only brought hell. I am changed; I cannot go back to what I was. Everything I once cared for...once loved is gone... I’M GONE.

Broken Girl

2012-01-19T20:09:00.001-07:00

by Anonymous

Today I woke up from the dead and found myself lost and alone. I was not really dead but it was starting to feel like it. I woke up like every other day, but this day seemed different somehow. A part of me was lost and wished to die right then and there, but I think I was afraid. I could not stand it anymore, this bitterness and loneliness or whatever it was. I tried to understand what was happening but I could not. I was too scared to even think what it might be. Most people forget about it and move on but, then again, I am not most people. I am not even sure I am a person. I feel more like a soulless being. I feel like there’s nothing inside me that is human at all. I feel alone and dead inside, but also like a monster. I don’t know even what I am anymore or who I am. I am a soulless person. Now I am a lost soul. It feels like I don’t belong at all. I could try to run but that would be useless. I am useless. What good am I for? What will happen to me if I don’t stay in this dried-up and lonely world? What is this place I have grown to love and hate? What does this all mean? What is happing to me and my soul? What am I? I can’t even look myself in the mirror anymore and say that’s me because I don’t even know what the real me looks like anymore. I feel like a dark hole that is being sucked in by this sad and bloody world.

Suicide

2011-12-21T07:40:00.002-07:00

by Ashley

want to die
instead i cry
suicide?
cant decide
what to do
who to run to
so many fears
drowning in tears
dead inside
lost my mind
fuck my life
wheres my knife
cant take this anymore
my eyes continue to pour
looking around
you're nowhere to be found
i guess when i said hi
i really meant goodbye

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

A Conflict Inside My Head

2011-12-21T07:32:00.002-07:00

by Amanda

There's a conflict brewing,

deep in the middle of my mind.

It's slowly finding its way,

finally finding the day.

The conflict has become,

a part of who I am,

and who I must become.

Fighting its way to the surface,

trying to leave my mind's domain.

My head pounds,

as the conflict inside is torn.

Suddenly,

my mind brings me to realize,

that no conflict was present,

nothing was ever there,

it was a cliche,

a nothing.

There was nothing to become,

nothing to strive to be,

because I've been it all along.

I've been strong throughout it all,

honest with myself and others.

Passionate with nature itself,

and proud of who I am.

The conflict was a cliche,

a nothing,

a mirage of the imagination,

a conflict of nothingness.

Grief

2011-11-22T22:27:00.000-07:00

by Shannon

It hit me in an instant

The cold steel fracturing

my being

Breath taken

Flailing to survive

I sunk...

The car hit her in an instant

The pain hit us.

The Person I'll Never Know

2011-11-19T19:24:00.001-07:00

by Emily

I never expected to want to stay here, so far from home.

But in those short moments when we talk, I don't feel so alone.

It's probably not meant to be, only a dream.

I'm scared I'll wake up and won't remember the eyes

that tell stories and a smile that never lies.

But that's all I'm allowed to feel.

I wonder what it would be like to touch you,

See if you're real.

We'll separate soon, and I'll cry,

Because the person I wanted to know,

Will have to say goodbye.

He

2011-11-19T19:04:00.004-07:00

by Sam

Why am I so crazy about this one strange guy?

It seems that every time I'm with him,

time just flies by.

He's quirky and outgoing.

He sings and plays guitar.

But if I tell him how I really feel,

I will have gone too far.

Hopefully we'll just be perfect

When he sees who I really am.

He'll laugh and talk and smile and walk

And just love me for being Sam.

4Him

2011-11-05T12:12:00.006-06:00

by Anja

Is it better this way?

When I'm dying every day.

Loneliness likes to stay

Do you want me to walk away?

Don't leave me hanging

In this world that's ever changing

Can't you see I'm fading?

Please take care of my heart that's been bleeding.

Will I have no more tears to cry??

Will I never hear you say "goodbye"?

Or will we never have another try?

Will you ever turn and walk away?

Will you not rescue me today?

All I want for you is to stay,

Until the end of the day.

Daddy I Miss

2011-11-05T08:37:00.007-06:00

by Danielle

A Father's Touch,

A Daddy's Kiss,

A Grieving Daughter,

You're Truly Missed.

An Empty House,

An Empty Chair,

My Daddy's Love

No Longer There.

A Broken Heart,

Tear Filled Eyes,

Another Soul

To Fill The Sky.

Many Memories

In My Mind,

Some I Laugh,

Some I Cry.

The Times We Shared,

The Laughs We Had,

Things I Miss
When I Think Of You Dad.

Realizing That's All I Have

To Hold On To,
Only Memories

Of What Was Once You.

Missing Your Laugh,

I Will Never Again Hear

This Is The Reality

That Fills Me

With So Much Fear.

No More Smile

On Your Face

No More Warmth

Of Your Embrace.

The Last Hug,

The Last Kiss,

The Last "Goodbye"

Leaves Me With
One Last Wish.

To Have You Daddy
Here Today

Never To Leave

Your Daughter This Way.

A Father's Touch,

A Daddy's Kiss,

A Grieving Daughter,

You're Truly Missed.

Love

2011-11-04T21:09:00.005-06:00

by Taylor

I'll tell you,

love is when you want to be with someone
so bad that you'll do anything.

it means that you don't want anyone other than that person.

you think about them all the time,

wondering if they feel the same,

but you never truly know how they feel,

which hurts when you find out they don't feel the same way.

and no matter how hard you try...

you can never truly get them off your mind.

the worst part about it...

is that you never stop searching for someone better,

when you know that isn't possible...

but when time comes to move on,

don't go looking for someone new;

let them find you....

Icarus

2011-11-02T21:50:00.002-06:00

by Jason

I was young
innocent
even naïve, when I first met Her;
a beautiful white dove
with wings like an angel
and eyes blue as the sky.
She gave me wings;
she taught me
how
to fly
Floating
Soaring
with Her
always by my side.

And then she left me.

And my wings disappear
and I’m falling,
Falling,
the wind tearing at me
the empty endless sky
my only witness
falling down
to the rock hard ground
of Reality.
Slowly I stand up
and pick up the pieces
of my shattered soul
and begin anew.

Storms of November

2011-11-01T19:52:00.000-06:00

by November

Fighting the world with all my might

Hoping to stay alive for just another night

Feeling the innocence soon to be conceived

The face of that man living inside of me

Looking at my future ahead

Almost gone as good as dead

Remembering all the pain and tears

Using the white stuff to take away fears

starring into the city of strangers

They don't care about me or my anger

Trying hard not to remember

Crying during the storms of November

That Summer

2011-09-27T21:58:00.001-06:00

by Alex

i watch the sunrise and think of you; of us.
i remember us barefoot, us in the rain, us watching the stars.
now i know i'd take back the words i have said.
especially the ones said to you.

Desire

2011-09-11T16:29:00.003-06:00

by Matt

The feeling of euphoria washes over me
Like when Hurricane Katrina came up to New Orleans.
And I know all you out there will find that offensive,
But right now my mind is on things much more extensive
Than your puny unintelligent ignorant opinions
Because in my eyes, you all are just stupid mindless minions.
You don't know what is like, to be like me
And really, really wish, that you could see,
Why I happen to decide to do the things that I do,
And why it looks like everyday I'm feeling so blue.
But I know that by now to you I'm worthless and scum,
And I also know I'm still worth something to some,
The ones I sell to and buy to anytime that I please,
And my dog and my girlfriend who's really a sleaze,
So maybe before you go making your petty judgments,
You'll notice that the heart that keeps me going has multiple dents,
Because I hope that, one day, I'll be saved,
From this one stupid drug that I've always craved.
I'm writing this all down from my room all alone,
Waiting for my nonexistent wife to come home.
Because the drug that I desire is a drug you can't make,
But everyone needs and some people make it seem fake,
The drug that I want and the drug that I need,
Is the drug that would explain it to you all indeed.
It is the reason why I am such a pitiful being,
And right now I cannot believe what I'm seeing.
Because I think my true dealer has come to stay,
The one girl I love just stopped my death and decay.

One Man

2011-09-08T21:24:00.001-06:00

by Chelsea

It was a dark night in September,
And yet she could still remember,
The pain she had inflicted,
To the one man that was gifted,
He was the only man, who knew,
What she had been going through,
A fate worse than death,
Her soul did not dare rest,
Glancing over her shoulder,
Her body grew colder,
She sensed that someone was there,
She felt eyes on her everywhere,
Casting eyes over to the shadow,
She had a feeling that she’d know,
The man hiding in the corner,
Slowly stepping closer,
She knew him at a glance,
The man she’d met by chance,
Five years he had been gone,
For her it was too long,
She could see into his heart,
Knowing she had no part,
The man she once knew,
Was staring right on through,
One word escaped his lips,
As he moved his finger tips,
“Betrayed”
To her it was treason,
She thought of what had died,
Beneath those bloodshot eyes,
He looked more ghost than man,
He slowly lifted his hand,
He held a single rose,
And made her cold down to her toes,
He dropped it on the floor,
And slowly turned towards the door,
She knew he meant to leave,
And she knew that she would grieve,
For all the love he once had shown,
To the woman who let out a groan,
She had given up her life,
For the man who now had a wife,
Beaten and betrayed,
She tried to call his name,
He slowly turned to stare,
At the woman who never cared,
He turned around once more,
And walked firmly out the door,
She fell onto her knees,
And let out sobbing pleas,
Knowing he was lost,
And crying at the cost,
The man whom she had snubbed,
And the one man she had loved.

Stay True

2011-09-03T19:18:00.000-06:00

by Isaac

These are the facts
too hard to follow
but I will find a way
so stay true
I'm not looking for attention
just compassion
This is how it feels to be me
empty inside
so I'll try to stay true
don't matter that they judge you
they're not any better than me or you
so forget what they say
those words seem to make
my self esteem seem to fade
I'll try to be true
I'll be true,
but won't say the truth
They call me a corrupter
just think
Maybe I'm the corrupted
Are you calling me cause i'm calling you
just stay true
I got shoe's that fit me not you
mine are too small for you
I'll stay true,
but won't say the truth.

Too Late

2011-09-03T17:55:00.000-06:00

by Isaac

it's too late for you
to make it right inside all these
i used to be willing to die for you,
but I no longer cry for you
I act like i'm fine
underneath this skin i scream
I'll break all these damn mirrors
can't stand myself
i hate myself
I'm going through some changes
I don't know what they are,
but I keep flowing through em
I walk around, people always staring
Just take a sleeping pill or I can't sleep
slit my wrist to make myself have some justice
doesn't make sense except in the moment
I'll never get a chance again
so i'll just say the truth
i fuckin hate you.
it's just too late

Till I Run Dry

2011-09-03T17:48:00.001-06:00

by Isaac

till i collapse
i'ma fight,
but i ain't a fucking fighter
just a fuckin loner
i ain't the corrupted
i'm the corrupter
i'm no longer the influenced
but this time the
influencer
they all say
"say no 2 drugs"
why don't you help me
and i wont take that road
but too late now to say you're sorry
because it's all gone
i'm gone faster than a fawn

Why?

2011-09-01T01:00:00.000-06:00

by Destiny

I don't know what's going on
nor can I explain why
but I'm tired of all the endless nights
where all I can do is cry.

My life is a crossroad,
I don't know where to turn,
and I'm too afraid to step in the fire,
because I might get burned.

The things you say,
the things you do,
are not just hurting me
but hurting others too.

One day I won't be here,
you won't see me anymore,
you'll sit there from the window,
watching me walk out the door.

You're tearing this family apart,
and we'll never be the same,
you're toying with all our lives,
Come on now, this isn't a game.

My heart is starting to hurt,
and I may begin to cry,
But before I do, tell me one thing,
why?

Bitter End

2011-08-17T20:13:00.000-06:00

by Z.B.

I asked for a ride
You left me abandoned
I asked for a smile
You made me cry
I asked for warmth
You threw me into a blizzard
I asked for shelter
You left me homeless
I asked for happiness
You filled me with grief
I asked for my life
You threw me into the jaws of death
Now one last time I ask you
To forgive me
For chasing after you

Life Without You Won't Do

2011-08-08T21:11:00.000-06:00

by Hannah

You're without a doubt
All I dream about
Not loving you is like blacking out
Forgetting about you is harder than you know

I fell for you hard
You caught me off guard,
left me hanging in the air

Your lips pushed me over the edge
Now I know I can't live without you
I know I can't breath without hearing your voice
over the phone or hearing you whisper in my ear

Fell in love with you
There was nothing I could do
You made me fall hard and I didn't think anyone
could make me feel more alive

You were all I needed
I'd do anything for you
I will love you forever
through wherever life takes us

What happened to that
Can you hear my heart break
Because I can feel it
but I can't take it

I didn't mean to you what you meant to me
My eyes didn't make you feel alive
As yours did to me
As you played my heart and left me aching

Life can't be worth living
When you're not here to live it with me
I can't do it without you
And I can't take the empty feeling you left with me

Breaking Up

2011-08-07T21:15:00.001-06:00

by Kristan

I regret how I treated you
You broke my heart too
I love you so much
I miss your touch
I want to hate you
I wish I would have knew
That all you wanted to do was play
I wish you would have said the words you had to say
Why did you hurt me?
And ruin everything we was supposed to be
Why did you throw everything away?
We could still be together this very day
I want everything back
I don't want love to lack
Why did you send me away with tears
You didn't make anything clear
You said we were meant to be?
Why did you use me?
You shouldn't have lied
about what we were suppose to be.
I have lost you
I'm sorry for everything I do.
What is it about her?
Is there something wrong with me?
I want what we used to be.
I don't want money, sex, I want your love
Your love sent to me from above.
Who are you when I'm not looking?
I want to watch you on the couch facebooking
I want you home with me
Things need to go back to the way they used to be
Together forever in my heart.
No one should have torn that apart.

Pain That Rules

2011-08-04T22:59:00.000-06:00

by Kelsie

It's pain that affects me
Stress that rules me
Hate that gives me all the rage to blow
Want to escape..
Need to escape..
Before I start rolling down that hill
Walking down that dark path
I pray for my mental state to die down
I pray that my body keeps going
That I stop rolling
That one day waking up was not as hard
One day I looked at life with different eyes
One day I felt pleasure and happiness once again
If I could make anything in this world go away
It would be the thoughts that almost killed me
The pain, that doesn't hurt anymore
Get out of my head, make this life go away
And replace me with a new mind and look with new eyes

My Recovery

2011-08-04T21:56:00.000-06:00

by Kristan

I am not the same person I was before
My recovery has opened a lot of doors
Picking up that white key tag was great
Even though I was late
I could pick up those drugs anyday
But I choose to say that drugs are ***
Why do I do the things I do?
This question I dont have the answer to
Change takes time
Time is all mine
I might not ever get all better
That is why I am writing this letter
I am me
This is the person I will forever be
Maybe I did it to cover the pain
Maybe I did it to keep me sane
No matter what I did it for
I don't want to do it anymore
I want to be clean for me
I want to show everyone what I can be
I know I can say I want to try
I really want this
I will do anything so I don't die
I know some days I am going to sigh
And feel like I wanna die
But I am not going to get high
I am going to live everyday and try not to lie
To all those so called "friends" I say bye
Today I am not going to get high
Just for today
That's all I have to say

Note From A Victim

2011-08-04T21:55:00.002-06:00

by Maddy

everyone sees me in this upsetting light,
everyone sees this light growing dimmer and dimmer
as people keep making fun of me.
but yet they don't try to help.
they have their eyes, and they see me,
they have ears, they hear it..
all the lies and the jokes,
but they wont believe me.
i'm wearing a mask to give me a disguise,
it starts and lasts all day;
why wont it just go away?
all the laughter and comments.
i try to say there is no pain,
i try to be strong for the ones
i need to be an example for.
who are you to pick my soul apart?
i wonder if you realize that you and i are just the same,
making me cry is worse than suicide.
i remember when i loved school, i remember always going
and being upset when i got sick because i missed a day.
but that all changed in high school.
everyone says im too ugly, too fat, or my hair is ugly.
well in my eyes i am, but i am more than just that.
you don't even understand the stuff ive been through.
everyday i'm suffering, because of what you all say to me,
this time you re not the victim, its me.
this is my life and ive realized, i did no harm.
but don't worry about me,
im just some girl that has people who have ruined her life.
they don't even take the blame
they just live knowing they are hurting am innocent person.
they put me through all this torture that i don't deserve.

My Molestation

2011-08-04T21:49:00.000-06:00

by Kristan

I am tearing my family apart
The ones I love with all my heart
Is it my fault he touched me
He changed everything I was supposed to be
For her I have lost
I want her back at all costs
For my grandma he has hurt
All he did was treat her like dirt
When I look in the mirror I feel ugly and fat
I never wanted that
He wanted lust
Because of that I am filled with disgust
She has always been there for me
Now she won't even look at me
It hurts more everyday
I don't even have words to say
My friends don't understand this
Which makes me really pissed
Trying to understand and feel
But I am so lost, don't know how to heal
How do I get my life back
My nightmares give me panic attacks
I don't know how to get better
I have tried writing many letters
All I do is hurt and cry
All my thoughts are I wanna die

Chris

2011-08-04T21:41:00.000-06:00

by Kristan

You took away all the pain
I love you so much it drives me insane
I love the way you make me feel
Because of you I healed
Never have I felt this way
God, the love I feel for you each day
I would do anything for you
And I know you would too
I love the way you treat me
You are the only one that has the key
I never want to part
All it would do is break my heart
You drive me so wild
I can't wait to have our first child
I could never make up
For what you have done for me
But that you don't see
You are the best I have ever had
For that I am so glad
I have never fell in love so fast
I hope it will last
I am head over heels in love with you
I feel you are too
You picked me up when I was down
Whenever I am with you I don't frown
I want you to be mine forever
I want you to say forever and ever
I want to be your wife
For the rest of your life
I want kids and to be a mother
And for you to never love another
You have the key to my heart
You better never ever tear that apart

Life

2011-08-04T21:37:00.000-06:00

by Kristan

Why do girls want to be fat or thin?
Why be happy every now and then?
Life is short, not that long
Admit your wrongs
No harm or fear
Drop every tear
Make life great
Never miss any date
Have fun
For your life has just begun
Never believe another who hurts you
What they say is not true
You know what you are
Even though words leave scars
Some friends stab you in the back
So trust is really hard not lack
Love hard and kiss slow
Never hate a foe
Time fades and people too
Just forget the ones that hurt you
Be who you are
Because inside and out you are a shining star
Forget the past and let it go
Time never goes slow
Yesterday is gone so it's the past
All you have is today so make it last

Could've Been

2011-08-04T21:19:00.000-06:00

by Morgane

Pen in the hand with no paper to spare
I told the truth
got caught in a lie
I held your hand
but you let me die
I kept you close
But you exposed my cries
I let you in
but you locked me out
I wanted you.
I wanted us.
I wanted we.
Staying awake
thinking on what we could be
building a bridge I'd soon have to burn
I gave you the keys
and you drove me crazy
Without a show
you gave me your attention
I wanted you.
I wanted us.
I wanted we.
I wanted you inside of me
Existing off of the Could've Been

Respect

2011-08-04T19:47:00.000-06:00

by Nyelle

I am a person
One who should have respect,
I am an African American
And proud to be.
The tears I shed
The blood I shed,
Innocent souls dead,
For being judged
We need respect.
I should be judged
By how I act.
I should be judged
By what I do
And what I say.
Also what I have
To offer the world.
Not by a color which
People call black.
We all need to respect.
Don’t be afraid of me:
You can love me,
Or you can hate me.
All that matters
In the end,
I am still a
Child of God.
And a human being.
I need respect
We all do.
But first,
We all need to know
What is respect?
And what does it mean?

Life

2011-06-12T09:21:00.003-06:00

by Anonymous

Life. You are unrequited everything and happy nothing. You make me wake up in the morning and wonder why. I do good and you never reward me. I offer mercy to others and you show me none in return. I suffer and you never comfort me. I break and you never heal me. I cry and you let me drown. I bleed and you let me run dry. I pray and it doesn't matter. I hope til Im blue in the face.

My heart is an open, gaping wound, crying out for someone to save it. But it will never happen and never matter. It will be ignored, stepped on, or used up and returned. And that is who *I* will always be. There is no hope on the horizon. There is no spark waiting to catch flame. There is no one with their heart set on mine. I am as alone as I was yesterday and will only be more so tomorrow.

"If only we had known.." How much do I have to say, with how many words, in how many ways? Do I have to scream, in the middle of the street? Do I have to stop traffic, to get someone to care, to get someone to understand, to get someone to notice? Or perhaps I'll never exist to anyone and will eventually be crushed underneath the weight of my own tears.

I'm Sorry

2011-06-12T09:19:00.000-06:00

by Anonymous

Im sorry everybody is better than me
Im sorry everybody is prettier than me
Im sorry everybody is cooler than me
Im sorry nobody wants to talk to me
Im sorry no one wants to be friends with me
Im sorry I hang my head when Im around other people
Im sorry I look at the ground all the time
Im sorry I never smile
Im sorry that even when I try to smile no one can tell
Im sorry no one will ever want to be my boyfriend
Im sorry Ill never have a relationship
Im sorry no one will ever think Im special
Im sorry no one will ever put me first
Im sorry no one will ever send me flowers
Im sorry no one will ever make me dinner
Im sorry no one will ever go out of their way for me
Im sorry Ill never take dancing lessons with my husband when we're old
im sorry no one will ever catch on when Im feeling bad
Im sorry I will never depend on anyone
Im sorry Im a nobody
Im sorry

Secret Kiss

2011-06-08T22:18:00.002-06:00

by Aareyon

Your smile glows like the moon,
blossoms Beautiful as the Rose in the purest hope of spring.
My heart follows your deep voice
and leaps like a Rabbit at the whisper of your name.
The evening floats in on a great Butterfly wing.
I am comforted by your hand,
that I carry into the breeze of the wind
and hold next to my Heart.
I am filled with hope,
that you may dry my tears of Ocean Water.
As my Tears falls from my Face,
it reminds me of your laugh.
In the quiet, I listen for the last Laughs of the night.
My heated Face leaps to my Gloves.
I wait in the moonlight for your secret Kiss
So that we may Run as one, hand in hand,
in search of the magnificent and mystical palace of love.
But you no longer exist, so I’ll never get that secret kiss.

When Life Gives You Napalm

2011-06-08T22:06:00.001-06:00

by Pockets

If life gives you napalm what shall you do?
Would you burn a city because they are of another race?
Or simply because you have the arbitrary power to?
Would you use it to help the common man
or use it to burn what left remains of his dignity?
Or would you be like us and burn the world to ash
because you think you are better?

Photo Frame

2011-06-08T21:57:00.002-06:00

by Zane

I found our old photo frame today, it was tucked under some things, that I had hidden away. I wipe the dust off, and bring the frame to my face, I strain my eyes to see what I thought I saw. A smile was plastered upon my face. No hurt, no pain, not even a trace. Your arm was wrapped around me ever so tight, I can almost hear you whispering it's alright. I take a deep breath, remembering when you left me with no air, simply breathless, but then the tears start to fall, and before I know what's happening I throw the frame at the wall. I watch the glass shatter into small pieces, knowing they can never be fixed with all the damage done. But that's how you left me. Broken, chipped. There are always going to be scars and the hesitation of letting people back into my heart.

My Love for You

2011-06-08T21:49:00.004-06:00

by Tanaya

I want a future with you,
You're my lover, you're my boo.
That's true and real.
I know you had a past and love you still.
I won't hurt you or put you in harm,
cause you're the lady I want on my arm.
When you've got a frown,
I want to turn that to a smile.
It's us against the world.
You're my girl,
and I want you to stay in my world.

Kiss Me

2011-06-08T21:45:00.004-06:00

by Odalis

Kiss me, not her, damn boy
You complete me,
You've got my head spinning
I'll admit I think of you all day
When you kiss her, I wish it was me
When I see you whisper into her ear,
I imagine that's me
Kick her out; I should be there
Kiss me, not her, cause I love you
I just wish you could know

Why Don't You Stay, Rain?

2011-04-16T20:29:00.001-06:00

by Kendra

Why don't you stay, rain?
So you can wash away my pain.
I have too much sorrow,
My happiness need not borrow.
You will be in my heart forever
Even when it's love i sever.
Why don't you stay, rain?
So you can keep me sane.

Tears

2011-04-16T20:27:00.001-06:00

by Kendra

Walking through the rain,
I try to forget the pain.
I try to ignore the sting in my eyes,
because I know, a strong girl never cries.
I begin to run, run from my fears.
But I am followed by my ever present tears.
I want to leave these familiar places,
leave behind all of these frequent faces.
But where will I go?
What will I do?
All I know is I have to get faraway from you.
But something keeps me here,
crying one last tear.

Missing You

2011-04-16T20:19:00.004-06:00

by Sam

You have the sticky sweet lips,
And of course my hands are on your hips.
Your arms around my neck, as I give you a soft, sweet peck.
Then we kiss, your lips I sure will miss.
And your touch, I miss that so much.
I miss your soft skin, waiting for it to begin.
Time for two, just me, just you.
You're in my arms again.
Then, you mustn't leave me,
Again, not ever again, you see.
My heart beats for you.
Only you, my boo, I love you.

Should I?

2011-04-16T20:10:00.002-06:00

by Anonymous

don't figure me out,
i can't tell you one thing.
wait, stay, is that all I am?
I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO ASK YOU TO STAY?
but, thanks to me, you don't know a thing.
no, i'm not DESPERATE, I refuse to show
but does that make me a coward?
NO, I AM STRONGER THAN BEFORE, STRONGER THAN ALL ELSE.
but, what can I say?

every word I whisper,
is a part of me that i begin to trust,
every word is unheard.
every word i say is unheard.
but if I do speak,
please listen,
and know that once I tell you,
i am confiding in you,
may it be the littlest thing.

please, remember me.

I Am the Girl

2011-04-16T20:07:00.001-06:00

by Anonymous

I am the girl who felt that ache,
I am the girl whose lunch you’d take,
I am the girl who was frightened by you,
I am the girl who had nothing to do,
I am the girl who spoke not a word,
I am the girl who nobody heard,
I am the girl who took all your lies,
I am the girl who never could rise,
I was the girl who knew you were cruel,
I was the girl you said wasn’t cool,
I was the girl who faced up to her fears,
I was the girl who stood up to her peers,
I am the girl who still cannot let go,
I am the girl who just wants you to know,
I was a person put down by your fun,
I was a person.
Not the only one.

Fake Smiles

2011-02-07T19:09:00.001-07:00

by Amelia

They smile at me, because they see a pretty face.
They smile at me, because they see a white race.
They smile at me, not knowing who I really am.
They smile at me, but they don't really give a damn.
I smile back, knowing I need to be nice.
But inside I'm crying, I don't have to think twice.
I've been left before, and I don't want them to leave anymore.
Fake smiles in my life aren't unusual, they cause me great bore.

The New Kid

2011-01-21T19:03:00.001-07:00

by Jade

People race past you,
You wonder where they go.
You see strangers everywhere,
and think "I am all alone."
A face looks at you,
She starts walking closer.
She asks, "What's your name?"
You give a great smile.

Elegy on the Death of My Love

2011-01-16T09:28:00.005-07:00

by Ayush

There is no reason for love. If there is a reason, it is not love!

The ecstatic drug in my lacklustre life,
The solitary cure of my solitude;
That angel is mine, for once....and forever,
I was dumbstruck, frenzied and hysteric,
All at her attitude!

Love is truth, the dawn of nature;
All the rest - A mere trance, a lie;
I just wanted to hold her tight, just once-
And glide hand in hand: Heart lost, love gained!

Sameer decided to propose the girl.
He was returning after buying a bunch of red roses for her,
when he saw her in a park....Not alone, but with a boy.
The intimacy told he was more than a friend............
The relationship ended before it could start.
Sameer still met her sometimes, at public places mostly;
but he never felt nervous talking to her anymore!

Much worse than a sweet lie, is a bitter truth.
Again was I dumbstruck, a different reason though,
An immigrant in her heart till then,
now craved to leave it fast....and forever;
Her credibility and my trust, both hit an all-time low!

Though undeserving you are,
My love for you can never end,
'Cause I am not dead, just tempest tossed.
I will move ahead, careful of this insomnia,
My heart is now regained, but love lost!

Sameer never told the girl about his love,
and the poor girl doesn't even know what has she lost.
Sameer would have kept her happy more than anyone else
and would have cared for her at all times,
but the girl...she had got her fate sealed!

His Eyes

2011-01-14T21:33:00.002-07:00

by Anonymous

His eyes met mine the first day of school.
I felt the warmth in my heart,
I didn't even know his first name.
But the blue and yellow in his eyes
made me think of the ocean as the sun meets it.
His eyes met mine and that's when I fell for him.
His eyes.

Lady in Red

2011-01-08T20:38:00.003-07:00

Seeing her in red,
as if I had been blindfolded,
in the midst of people,
such beauty was never expected.

Gazing through her eyes,
and to realize the meaning of nice,
those bright glowing eyes,
were the stars in my eyes.

Her lips were such a temptation,
that had filled my mind with the word sensation.

A short-haired girl in red,
with stunning beauty.

Butterfly, Butterfly

2010-11-19T20:58:00.001-07:00

by Anonymous

Butterfly, Butterfly
fly away home
your heart is broken
but your day will come
you love him
he knows it
but chooses to ignore it
it scares him to think about it
because he knows he wants it
you tell him
you love him
he says you're crazy
you turned to walk away
he saw the sadness
the hurt
the tears
he wanted to reach out
but turned away
Butterfly, Butterfly
fly away home
your heart is broken
but your day will come....

Fine

2010-11-14T18:30:00.001-07:00

by Anonymous

Whenever people ask me,
How am I,
I always end up saying
FINE.
But the truth is I'm not.
I'm not fine.
I'm worse than fine,
and fine is horrible.
I want to feel great,
and i can only feel that when I'm with you.
But ever since you're not here,
Fine is all I feel.
I want to feel you.
You hand in mine,
Your arm around my waist,
Your sweet lips caressing my own.
But you're gone.
All you'll ever be is gone,
and all I'll ever be is
Fine.

Gone

2010-11-14T18:25:00.001-07:00

by Anonymous

I was once a caring person.
Someone who had silver wings of light.
But I learned not to trust you, god.
One of many faces, one who says he cares,
but with no proof I sit back and watch his desperate tries to rule.
Instead of forward, I look back, to the evil I give in.
I will be one with you, so teach me how to walk with you.
Face to Face.

One More Day

2010-11-14T17:49:00.003-07:00

by Andrew M.

When I sit, I think.
When I think, I think of what I'm thinking of.
I think of the good, and the bads.
I think about what's right, what's wrong.
Time and time again,
I think if it's worth it, worth it to eat, breath.
But, in the end it comes to just needing one more day.
So much weight and stress pulling down, still one more day.
When light turns to dark,
And dark shines to light,
Again I think and think after I'm surrounded by thoughts.
Visions circle my head, mostly of sadness and sorrow.
Times come when I must cry before I sleep.
Still I say one more day.
When it comes to the times all is lost.
Whether to end it there becomes the debate.
Well, it is those times that puts happiness in my heart.
It is those times that make me cheerful,
For I know my friends care.
When they understand, I understand.
When it comes to mind,
I know that if I end it,
Those who show and know they care,
Show me that I am loved.
When the end does come, it will not be me.
But, it shall be nature.
I know and still I push through.
I make every day count.
To show me, is to save me.

Talking

2009-10-18T18:00:00.000-06:00

by Anonymous

Maybe if you told me,
maybe just once,
maybe then waking up in the morning,
would be,
just a little easier,
notes slip through my fingers,
the notes of your melody,
and i wonder if you even notice
that my eyes can't help but watch you,
my heart wants to love you,
but my head is so unsure,
tell me something i don't know

I'll Be There

2009-10-05T19:53:00.001-06:00

by Becca

No matter where you are,
No matter what you do,
I will be there.
Time will pass,
You’ll fall in love,
I’ll be watching from a distance
Your personal angel.
When he breaks your heart,
And tears are pouring down your face,
I’ll be there.
When you pull the trigger,
I’ll put my life on the line
I’ll be there
For you.
Forever.

Too Late

2009-10-05T19:47:00.001-06:00

by Kristen

Standing on the edge.
Staring in his eyes.
Watching the waves roll in.
As the tears fill his eyes.
The waves crash at their feet.
People walk down the beach.
He’s unable to say what he wants to say.
Unable to say what’s in his heart.
Pretending that it isn’t real.
So he won’t have to feel.
He can see the pain that is there.
He just chose to ignore it.
Pretending that the pain isn’t real.
Things just seem to be moving too fast.
Moments that don’t last.
Wanting to change the past.
As the sun starts to set.
Tears form in her eyes.
He slowly starts to walk away.
She stands staring at the sky.
Wondering how things got this way.
Not knowing what to say to make him stay.
The waves crash against the shore.
As her heart shatters.
Watching as he walks away.
She steps close to the waves.
He never looked back.
Just continued to walk away.
As she walked into the waves.
Wanting her pain to disappear.
Wanting to no longer be able to feel.
Looking back one last time
at the boy who broke her heart.
He’s still walking down the beach.
As the waves drag her down.
Being pulled under without a fight.
Getting farther from the light.
He stops and turns around.
Hoping to see her one last time.
People begin shouting,
she’s going to drown.
As he runs back to the shore.
She can’t be seen anymore.
He begins calling out her name.
As he walks into the waves.
Searching for some sign.
That he isn’t too late.
That he still has a chance. As
she rises to the surface.
He reaches out his hand.
Praying that she will forgive him.
And open her heart once again.
As he grabs her hand
the waves pull her down.
Thinking he will lose her again
he pulls her towards him.
Looking into eyes that no longer shine.
He carries her to the shore.
Praying for one more chance.
Hoping he hasn’t lost her yet.
People start to crowd around.
As he tries to save her life.
Finally saying all the things
he wanted to say.
Saying the words she wanted to hear.
Just saying them a little too late.
As her mind starts to cloud.
All she can hear is his voice.
His words that he finally said.
His voice telling her to fight.
Her eyes grow tired.
As she blocks out the world.
His tears are falling on her face.
Wishing to turn back time.
Wanting her to understand.
That even though it went unsaid.
She meant everything to him.
She was his reason for living.
Praying to god to take him instead.
Not wanting her to be taken from him.
Hoping for a miracle.
As she slowly starts to slip away.
Telling her how much
he needs her to stay.

Love and Everything

2009-10-05T19:46:00.000-06:00

by Melissa

The sky may fall, the stars may, too
but in the end i will still love you.

When things go wrong and life turns tough
and no one is thinking about me
i close my eyes, open my heart,
you're the angel that i see

What I Dream of Doing

2009-10-05T19:42:00.002-06:00

by Ida

I imagine, before I die, the things
I’ve always dreamed of doing
I desire that this life
I will live peacefully and slowly
But the world is not like that
So I would have to let it go

I dream of soaring and gliding freely
With my own liberty, up above all ignorant humans
To fly up to the circular yet rough moon
and take in the sight of its pure fascination

I want to go to the magnificent
Bahamas and wonderful Jamaica
To be entertained and relaxed
in sublime trips to Tokyo or San Francisco
I want to enjoy as much as I can,
like furry, selfish squirrels preparing to
embrace the snowy time of hibernation

To go extreme shopping with worthy friends
And visit more than a thousand
hot spots before the dire end
I dream of snowboarding
down the Appalachian like a crazed maniac
I lust to watch a sensational Yankees game
And to wildly root for them with a Hammy face
As well as rocketing up through the Milky Way,
like a hyper dog to a lake

I pray that I will have enough time
To say goodbye to this cruel, spiteful world
I have to quickly seize the day
Before the obnoxious grave is swiftly dug
Where I will lay
For no human can predict the future,
No one knows what will happen the next
All I can do is to keep my fingers crossed
for the absolute best

What If

2009-10-05T19:38:00.001-06:00

by Candise

What if i told you the reasons behind my actions,
would you laugh and call me a freak
or would you accept me?

What if i said i still missed you,
would you feel the same
or just laugh and walk away?

What if i went to you in a time of need,
would you help or just ignore me
or make it worse?

What if i came to you and told you i still loved you,
would you return my feelings
or would you crush them again?

There are so many 'what ifs' in the world
and so many wonders unanswered,
but still we add and add
to that growing population.

My Little Glass Jar

2009-10-05T19:36:00.000-06:00

by Rebecca

Clear
Shiny
Calm
My little glass jar
Perfect role model
No wining
No complaints
Does as it’s told
Held by others
Not a care in the world
But then
One day
It breaks

Digging into all who held it
Targeting the ones who cared
Leaving scars
To never heal

Those who wouldn’t touch it
Those who hated with no reason
Are left
Not a scar
Not a scratch
Not a care

Life of A Teenage Girl

2009-10-02T22:48:00.002-06:00

by Kytasia

Life is full of thrills ,
And life can be rough,
Yet life is full of chills
And life can be tough.
Making decisions.
Fulfilling your dreams,
Choosing your future,
Isn't easy as it seem,
Dealing with the pressure
Dealing with school
As people criticize you,
They make you look like a fool,
Drama, Gossip
Floating around,
People talk
No truth to be found,
Hanging out with friends,
So the fun never ends,
Never drink and drive.
It'll save more lives.
Be careful who you trust...
Take a risk if you must,
Share all your laughter
Why frown when it take
less energy to smile
Forget all your problems
I believe that it's better that way.
Just know who you are.
Believe that you can make it
Life your life the fullest.
And try not to stress it.

Before

2009-03-24T07:58:00.000-06:00

by Maria

I don't care about you anymore,
Anything we had is now before,
So I'm gonna show you to the door.
I know your heart feels very sore,
And it's so very hard to ignore,
But things with us just ain't too sure;
Our situation is just too poor.
I wish things were as before,
Just you, me, and no one more.

Her New Best Friend

2009-03-15T17:49:00.000-06:00

by Hannah

Utterly confused and lost,
She walks this world alone,
Unsure of what path to take.
She turns from God,
As her friends and family,
Turn from her.
All the seems to be left
Is depression and darkness.
Anorexia and pills dont seem to work.
They only leave her hungry and loopy.
So she decides to try something
All together new.
The razor becomes her new best friend.
It's now in her hands,
Moving closer to her arm.
She can feel the sting
And the release of blood,
As the razor slices
Open her skin.
While stumbling over in pain,
She finally reliazes the answer to her prayers.
Once again she is finally able
To feel again.

Actuality

2009-03-15T17:48:00.000-06:00

by Sophie

In this world of stark reality,
What should I take or leave,
What is actuality,
And what is make-believe?

This place is so familiar,
The feelings it brings are not,
How can I carry on like before,
When there is something I forgot?

Who knows what it is I’m missing,
But there’s a gap that proves it is,
These tears aren’t of sadness,
They’re of this thing I can’t but miss.

Find the problem,
And solve its source,
We learn to do this often,
But when I’m weak then with what force?

In this world of stark reality,
What should I take or leave,
What is actuality,
And what is make-believe?

You Give Me Something

2009-03-15T17:47:00.000-06:00

by Anonymous

you give me something
something to believe in
something to love
something to adore
you say you won't break me down
but you lied
you return
and I am broken down
into a million pieces
crying in my corner
you return
and build me up again
and the cycle begins
over and over

Who Am I?

2009-03-15T17:42:00.002-06:00

by Anonymous

who am i to follow what everyone else does? who am i to speak my mind? who am i?

who are you to say fit in! to promote being average or even stand out for attention. where are the people who are true to themselves?

i have realized i have been sucked into a void of never ending, always changing "he said, she said, love isnt fair, this is in, this is out" world. no place to be yourself...am i right?

i am one who holds out on most of my thoughts, most of my opinions, because i will be criticized, catergorized, and rejected by society.

WE ARE BLIND. WE CANNOT SEE THAT WEN WE TELL PEOPLE TO BE THEMSELVES HALF OF THEM DECIDE TO BE SOMEONE ELSE IN FEAR OF REJECTION FORM THEIR COMMUNITY!

where is hope? the only hope to bring back originality is to be yourself and be true to yourself 100% of the time, because even they, even the "jocks" or "preps" or "emos" or nerds cant label you because there isnt a single word that can even begin to describe your complex or simple unique personality - who you really are.

but once in a blue moon there is a person. a person who is real, a person who doesnt have an ego, who doesnt care about being popular, or pretty, or noticed. they are who they are and people get shocked, curious, and even angry, possibly because they dont know why they dont want to fit in.

who wants to fit in in a world of strange, abnormal, mysterious places? who wants to be the wallpaper of the white house or a rare palace? who wants to be the attention-getter and be rebellious just to get attention? i know i cannot truly be myself or else id be called an attention-getter. which i am not.

i want to speak my mind. i do. i want to stand up and say this isnt right. i want to. i will. because from now on i am not going to follow the crowd. i am not going to hold out on my thoughts. i am going to be, for once in a long time, me.

i am me, who are you?

Ten Little Gymnasts

2009-01-12T20:35:00.002-07:00

by Anonymous

Ten little gymnasts were all fine
one flipped into the foam and then there were nine.

Nine little gymnasts went for a skate
one fell down and then there were eight.

Eight little gymnasts all thought about heaven
one went up there and then there were seven.

Seven little gymnasts were all doing kicks
one over-stretched and then there were six.

Six little gymnasts learned how to dive
one drowned and then there were five.

Five little gymnasts went through the door
one didnt and then there were four.

Four little gymnasts were climbing a tree
one slipped and then there were three.

Three little gymnasts had a mother named Lou
one ran away and then there were two.

Two little gymnasts weighed a ton
one was too big and then there was one.

One little gymnasts was having fun
she got tired and then there were none!

Internal Evil

2009-01-12T20:34:00.000-07:00

by Anonymous

how can
thoughts be so powerful?
a wicked curse but the truth
laid in front of him always.
how can we be so cruel?
the vicious deed of murder
as bad as threatening;
just as bad in the conscience,
for HE hears it.

Recall

2009-01-03T07:54:00.002-07:00

by Breana

I recall on what was once a bliss
Smiling faces great gifts sealed with kisses
Then I dwell on my hell
as the toll of bells called lies ring
Then I hear the bells called hatred
Followed by deceit
Next come the toll of bells called pain
And I remember how you inflicted so much upon me
All through all the lies
You were telling me
And through all the pain you continue to bring
And through all my tears
Running
And through all my smiles fading
Only to find that if I pray
My troubles won't last always...

I Thought I Knew You

2009-01-03T07:49:00.001-07:00

by Anonymous

I guess
i thought
but it isn't true
i always thought
i knew everything about you.
So much you can learn in one night
you see?
No you dont cuz you dont really care about me.
I learned the times you tried
and all the times you lied
i heard those things and almost cried
cuz
in my head i knew that wasn't you
but who knew?
i guess
especialy not me.
i heard all those things they said
all those things you did.
i wanted
to shout
i wanted to
scream
i wanted to defend you
but when have you ever defended me?
i guess you're someone
i just don't know
at least not anymore
you slammed that door
so long ago.
i guess
i
wanna break free
from that barrier
separating
you and me!
But
you don't.
You wanna do it your way
following the crowd
or following the sway.
Just be yourself for once
i'm hoping and praying
this is not who you have become.
so how am i supposed to
make this easy?
tell me about the part
where you decided to forget
about me.

Struggle to Be Strong

2009-01-01T20:46:00.000-07:00

by Angel

Who am I to pretend,
When my world is coming to a crashing end,
I was foolish and I was fooled,
To think a guy like you could ever be true,
You know what to say,
To keep my thoughts at bay,
Now my tears,
Are oh so hard to bare,
Sometimes I wonder if you ever cared,
But now I'm gonna take flight,
And finally reach the light,
I'll finally reach for the stars,
And won't be stuck behind these bars,
I learned to be strong,
When everything else is wrong,
I learned to believe,
When you where there to decieve,
I am so above love,
Because with you it will never be real,
I finished the deal.

Hazel Eyes

2009-01-01T19:17:00.000-07:00

by Anita

You see these pretty eyes
but you want to know what lies
behind these hazel eyes,
You may see a cover
that is oh so beautiful on the outside
but just as heartless and cold on the inside.
You must never know the fire
that is behind my hazel eyes.
The pain, the guilt, the suffering,
and the tears of my past years
Oh yeah, I've been there.
The hate in my anger,
the bitter in my passion,
and the tough in my love.
That is what lies behind these hazel eyes.

No

2009-01-01T19:12:00.000-07:00

by Esperanza

You tell me that I'm a child
and will never grow up
You tell me I have no voice, no choice
Who cares though luck
You tell me I'm always wrong,
you're always right
You try to tear me down,
but realize the more you do,
the more you see it's wrong
You tell me I can't when I already have
I shouldn't when you know I'll do it
You can't win, neither can I
Hey, the world isn't fair
You have no choice, no voice, who cares,
though luck...

Right Here, Right Now

2009-01-01T19:09:00.000-07:00

by Perla

i'd rather be in my room,
when all i can do is think of you.
not another day goes by
when i can't see your smile.
right here, right now!
is were you should be
right here, right now!
we were meant to see
when your're away, so faraway,
all i can do is fade away.
you're the light
that makes my darkness disappear
when you're right there.
right here, right now!

What's Real When...?

2009-01-01T19:08:00.001-07:00

by Tiffany

What’s real when you’re left to pretend?
What’s real when life is comin’ to an end?
What’s real when there’s a letter you never send?
What’s real when there’s a heart that will never mend?
What’s real when you’re living a fantasy?
What’s real when you can’t really see?
What’s real when it’s just you and me?
What’s real when it was meant to be?
What’s real when Love is at first sight?
What’s real when you’re flying an invisible kite?
What’s real when you’re alone at night?
What’s real when you take off for flight?
What’s real when you look above?
What’s real when there’s something you cove?
What’s real when in the sky there’s a dove?
What’s real when there's someone you love?
What’s real when accidents occur?
What’s real when you’re not sure?
What’s real when there’s exposure?
What’s the real answer?
What’s real when you only have one shoe?
What’s real when you don’t know who?
What’s real when it’s to good to be true?

What’s real when the answer to these questions is you?

You're real, you're real to me.

God's Promise

2009-01-01T19:05:00.000-07:00

by Samson

God never promised days without pain,
laughter without sorrow or sun without rain.
But God did promise strength for the day,
light through dark, and a guide for the way.
And all who believe in his kingdom up above...
He answers their faith...
With everlasting love.

Lately

2008-11-23T21:14:00.001-07:00

There is this crazy thing called life
Lately, its bringing me down
And everytime I turn around
I feel the weight of the world
Its sitting on my shoulders
Its yanking at my heart

And when I close my eyes
I can picture something better
I can picture it all come together
But when I open my eyes
It all goes back again
Just like that

I cant change the past
I'm not happy at the present
And I'm starting to doubt the future
Things dont look to bright
But I keep on wishing

I cant say I'm doing well
No, I cant say I'd rather die
But lately, I can feel the pain
Trying to keep it down
But it keeps coming back up

I cant cry this time
Trying to stay strong
Cant make any promises
Cause last night
I almost felt a tear

The world has been spinning lately
Cant keep my head straight
No one to blame
Just the way it goes
Life is just that way

Summer Gone Again

2008-11-23T21:12:00.001-07:00

by Victoria

The hot summer rain is falling on my window pane
I cant stop myself from falling
Falling for you again
My soul is yearning for your taste
Your arms to slip around my waist
But I know that you wont be there in the morning

I hate how much I love you,
I hate that I dont hate you.
I've got every reason to hate you,
now the wine starts to kick in.
I pour myself another glass
and hope this pain will come to pass
but you will forever be my golden boy.

The veil of night is slowly falling
as time drives me insane
I cant stop myself from falling,
head over heels again.
My heart is sore, I cannot sing
I sit and wait for the phone to ring
But I know that you wont be there if I call you.

You're always to blame for my aching heart,
and tears were predicted from the start,
i just hoped that you would be there
to stop the tears from falling.
Falling. Falling.

My thoughts of you are slowly falling
and the tears roll down again.
I cant stop myself from falling
for your smooth green eyes again.
Now the summers gone again,
its time for us to part,
and by next spring sometime
wine will have healed my broken heart.

But you will forever be my golden boy.

Lost

2008-11-23T21:10:00.000-07:00

by Kuni

She lives in the depths of despair
Is she wallowing there?
Looking for which way to turn,
she sees a sign and doesn’t
Hide because deep inside, she’s still alive
Walking, slowly, swiftly now
Will she make it or be found?
Lost in a world with no one to care
Lost in a place she thought she could bear
Following the road and she thinks of her head
Filled with sorrow and dread
Forgetting the past, dwelling on the future
But for now, she lives in the depths of despair
Knowing she won’t always stay wallowing there.

I Was Nervous

2008-11-09T14:56:00.001-07:00

by Melanie

i was nervous, and unprepared.
i didn't know people like you existed.
i would worry, worry all the time
who was i and what would i become.
he came into my pathetic life and made sunshine.

all i prayed for and everything i dreamed.

i am me and i can be okay with that now.

About You, But Not For You

2008-11-05T20:04:00.001-07:00

by Rachel

It’s 3:38 and the bell rings
releasing me into the jungle
of downtown Pittsburgh’s mess.
Kids from everywhere congregate
on corners inhaling cigarettes,
waiting for buses and meeting
friends from rival schools.
I think of you as I stand with
the cold wind brushing my legs,
my CAPA pants rolled up to my
knees. If you were here, you’d keep
me warm.

Tall buildings loom
up over small ones, keeping shadows
over most of the streets. The sun does
little to warm us. Shannon laughs in my
ear as she recites lines from Chicken Little,
our favorite movie: Four views in twenty-four hours,
an accomplishment made by the two of us over
Christmas break.

The bus comes, spraying slush up onto the sidewalk,
we climb in through the back doors
scrambling to find a seat. I sit next to
Shannon, our laughter carrying over
from our outside conversation.
The bus driver looks in her mirror
yelling to the back,
“Put the food away before I pull this bus over!”
Shannon and I sneak our chips, sipping our drinks
behind Jesse and Jeremy.
We laugh with them, their jokes
and party anecdotes spilling like
coffee from their lips. I smile
blushing, they’re cute but not like you.

There is a pause in conversation and I
get a chance to look out the window.
The sidewalks are littered with snow,
black slush covering the streets.
The trees are bare. Pittsburgh is ugly
in winter even though you refute
my opinion.

The bus pulls into Morningside,
and I pull the yellow bell rope
staggering my way up to front,
waving goodbye to
Shannon, Jesse, and Jeremy.
You would be jealous if you saw me
blush the way I do for them when
they wave back. I show the bus driver my
pass, say “Thank You” and jump
down onto the street, scrambling to
reach the sidewalk before the bus starts
pulling away. I walk down about four
houses and look up at my three-
story brick house looming over me.
I push the white gate that you
constantly bang shut back and
trek carefully to the steps, afraid
of the ice that might be
hiding under the snow; our
footsteps frozen from the morning.
I knock on the door, it’s Monday,
dad’s at work. I pull out my keys on
my GO ARMY key chain, my
Kiss Me I’m Irish key chain, and my
‘Stop Starring, They Don’t Talk’ key chain.
I pick the Trib PM up off
of the cold porch, unlocking the door
unleashing the warmth upon me,
and carry it inside with me,
peeling away the plastic. I flip
to my horoscope hoping
it will resemble something having
to do with you. It doesn’t and I toss
it on the side of the couch so
dad can read it when he comes home.

I pick the remote control up
turning on What I Like About You.
I retreat into the kitchen looking
for some type of fuel until
dinner comes along; something
to keep me going to accomplish my
unwanted homework. I pop something
in the microwave and go back to the
couch, waiting for it to get done.
Your smile lingers in my mind,
your laughter replaying over and over
in my ears. I smile.
The microwave bell dings.
One last thought before I let you go:
I love you, I’m sure of it.

She

2008-11-05T20:02:00.000-07:00

by Anonymous

she didnt understand

she was too confused

just so afraid

afraid to lose

her love

her friends

she thinks

it's the end

she didn't know

she didn't see

when to go

and when to leave

memories flashed

the blade ripped her wrist

her face turned

into an unimaginable twist

a tear slipped down

off her cheek

she cut again

she thought she was weak

a drop of blood hit the ground

she slit her throat

and made no sound

now her face

is black and blue

she was emo

who were you?

Sylvia

2008-11-05T19:59:00.000-07:00

by Elisa

Sylvia,
It saddens me to think that
the world did not accept you.
Life’s a dizzy dance that spins
round and round. The mind blurs and
soon there is no distinction
between what is and what is not.
Those high institutions crowned you,
the flashing lights were drawn to you.
Yet somehow you
still questioned the meaning of
success—What is it?
Perhaps someday I will learn something
you knew not (that success is
acceptance of the world.) But
until then I will carry your memory like a
black, deflating balloon that hangs over me.
(The question is, am I saddened by it
or inspired?)

No Clue

2008-11-05T19:54:00.002-07:00

by Derek

If beauty's skin deep and brains are forever
Then let's lie in bed and think together
Your beauty's unbounded and your wisdom unspoken
Let's lie around and fix bonds broken
My problem is that you love me no more
But just for me, clarify the score
You've taken my love and captured my heart
And in its wake you left not even a spark
But hate you I can't and never will
For my feelings for you can't ever stay still
The flame of this heart can never quell
Even when I feel unwell
My love has no limits but neither does your hate
So all I can do is sit here and wait
You think I don't fight but you are wrong
If I had my way I'd fight all day long
24/7 365 days a year
It wouldn't be a chore, it would be my career
I'd dedicate my life to winning your heart
And these three words will be my start:
I LOVE YOU

You and Me

2008-07-13T22:24:00.002-06:00

by HayLee

They say two years doesn't make you tolerable

Leave honey, it will just get worse

They say one hit leads to another

Call the police, tell your mother

They say once a cheater always a cheater

I sit here wondering how I don't want to compete with her

They say don't drink to take away your pain

I find it so hard not to, my mind has gone insane

They say don't tell your dad how you got those stitches

I didn't tell my dad because I knew he would take a gun to you

They said, trust me, he doesn't love you

I find myself thinkin, wow, "he doesn't love me"

Everything they say I have come to realize.

I'm not yours anymore
I'm not your toy
You can't hit me
Control me
Laugh at me
Yell at me
Or abuse me

They say one day you won't be able to take it anymore

I sit here ignoring you, I can't believe they're right....

"It's over"

More Than Friends

2008-07-13T22:08:00.004-06:00

by HayLee

He broke my heart
Over and over again
Throughout it all
You were always my friend.
You said you cared about me
And that would last till the end.
I cried on your shoulder,
You loved me while I had always loved him,
I pretended that I wanted life this way,
I wanted to be hit,
Stood up and cry.
I wanted to sit around
While the one I loved
Purposefully chose actions that hurt me.
I wanted to pretend
I could be with him till the end,
But now I find myself thinking
About how much I like my friend.

A Song from Dad

2008-07-10T22:06:00.003-06:00

by Katelyn

some days you won't see me or hear me on the phone
don't you frown my little one, you'll never be alone
daddy's in your heart and your heart's so deep
i will be there everyday, even when you sleep
daddy's love is special, this you'll find is true
there's nothing in this world i love more than i love you
daddy's love is stronger, stronger than the wind
daddy's love is in your heart, let the smiles begin
i don't need to tell you you're the sparkle in my eye
when you see me smiling, you're the reason why
you have brought me joy, and laughter into my world
you're an angel from the heavens, you're daddy's little girl
daddy's love is special, this you'll find is true
there's nothing in this world i love more than i love you
daddy's love is stronger, stronger than the wind
daddy's love is in your heart, let the smiles begin

I Try

2008-07-10T21:58:00.000-06:00

by Anonymous

i try so hard for you to notice me.
i try so hard for a simple hello or an easy goodbye.
i try so hard for a simple phone call or a hand wave.
i try so hard to be your easiest hello and your hardest goodbye.
i try so hard to get the words out of my mouth.
i try so hard to say.....
i'm in love with you

Secrets

2008-07-10T21:52:00.002-06:00

by Amanner

one night at a party where their eyes first met.
she told all her friends he was the best one yet.
they talked every night and finally started dating.
2 3 4 months and she kept on waiting
for those three words every girl yearns to hear.
one day while sitting under the stars
those three words were finally said: "i love you, dear"
5 6 7 months it was time for the next step.
but secrets were hidden and being kept.
the night it happened it was like a miracle
over and over and over again but one day she felt sick
and her body tried to fight it but it couldn't win.
1 trip to the hospital was not a happy one.
AIDS he said - now this relationship was no more fun.
she yelled and screamed saying how could you do this to me.
he said it shouldn't matter
we love each each other. love has no fee.
she couldnt stand what he did to her.
it was over in a flash, there was no more him and her.
but doing that didn't change the fact what he did to her.
she was internally dying and nobody could save her.
then one day her body couldn't take it; she was under the dirt.
up in heaven with God where it no longer hurt.

Still In Love With You

2008-07-10T21:49:00.003-06:00

by Anonymous

you were my love, my life, my everything.
your kisses so soft made my body tingle.
that one day she said she still loved you
you gave in without a fuss.
now i'm here all alone
with no one to talk to
you were my best friend.
we'd talk day and night
and you would never know what i'm thinking.
'are you over it?' you'd say
i'd agree but in the back of my mind,
not even close, baby.
in my mind i'm thinking you're the one.
but how am i in love
with the one who's hurting me so bad?
baby, i know you don't know this
but i want you to know.
that i still love you
and in my heart i'll never let you go.

The Future

2008-07-10T21:47:00.000-06:00

by Aubrey

we've been together forever
and that's how it's going to be
until the day i die
i will never forget
all the good times we've had
and the good times to come
all the things we plan
i hope they come true
and to stay with you
through my life
through the ups and downs,
you''ll cry with me
i'll cry with you,
together forever we'll always be,
i just want you to know
you're the best friend
anyone could ask for,
and im glad to know
that you're mine

Why Me?

2008-07-10T21:46:00.000-06:00

by Elizabeth

No friend called me tonight,
No boy looked at me with love,
No parent gave me hugs and more...
Why is it always me?

Chris found my journal,
Nick found out my secret crush,
Jonathan found my 'girl things...'
Why is it always me?

Life may be hard for little me,
Yet there are some who're harder,
So I'll give my truest smile...
And forget about me.

Gone

2008-07-10T21:45:00.001-06:00

by Elizabeth

I am no where to be found.
Mom and Dad don't find me ever.
Sister, brother, hears my voice;
Yet they will never see me.

Dead am I who gave them help,
For sorrow had surrounded me
And gone from life is Lilly Junes
Who was given no one's friendship.

Far Away Land

2008-07-10T21:43:00.001-06:00

by Carli

Once upon a time in a far away land,
was a rocking rock band,
that would rock the night away.
The band's not the story though,
it's the far away land.
This land is called Hollywood.
You know, with the celebrities that are all tanned.
They may sing, they may act...
but there's one thing they all seem to lack.
Sure, they maybe famous,
but they're missing something.
It's practically a fact.
What they're missing is a real life,
real friends, a real home.
All they've got is a far away land
and a rocking rock band.

Do We Feel the Same

2008-07-10T21:41:00.001-06:00

by Jessica

I want you
I know I have to wait
But god it's killing me
I keep thinking though
What is it that you care about?
I know you say you care
Nevertheless,
I just do not know what to think
I want to believe you,
But you have to understand
I’ve been hurt before
and cannot bare it again
Even if you do not feel as I do
It will not change the plans
I just need to know
What I am getting into

Liar

2008-07-10T21:40:00.000-06:00

by Shannon

I waited for you.
At the bus stop, remember?
You told me to meet you there
and we would catch a movie.
No, no, that’s fine, people forget...
of course. Some other time.
Look, don’t change your plans.
I have homework anyway...
I know it’s Friday, but
I might as well get it done while
I have the time...yeah, it can wait
until Sunday, I guess.
Where are you?
At your cousin’s?
Doing what?
Really? You’re watching TV
With her? Is she sick?
Really sick? Then how come
I can see you sitting in the lobby,
Holding hands with that other girl?

My Mercury

2008-07-10T21:37:00.000-06:00

by Shannon

I called her Mercury, that summer day in June
when I noticed her for the first time. She slid
past my house on her scratched up taped up
roller-blades like a silvery jet of fluid and waved
hi to me as she cut clean through the butter-thick
air. I swam in her chrysanthemum yellow peppered
with sapphire dust floating on a rippling pond eyes
when they met my own boring brown ones, framed by
thick black raven hair that danced in the air like
so many threads of spider’s silk. I never talked to that
girl, not even when the moving trucks swallowed her
boxes and furniture and eventually even herself whole,
‘cause I was just a shy little thing who hid behind
the asteroid belt of my mom’s plaid curtains
and sometimes peeped out to warm up a little
in her far-off brilliance. ‘Cause she was the light
of my universe and I was a black orb ostracized by
the earth’s learned men as a superfluous addition to the
Elite Eight. They think they know everything,
but they don’t know this; the sun isn’t the center of our
solar system¾she is. And even when Mercury moved
away I still hid behind that asteroid belt, even though the
orbital sometimes pushed me in front to bask in her distant
glow. She wrapped me up tight in her quicksilver smile
whenever she caught a glimpse of me,
and pulled me, Pluto, back into the Milky Way.

Thinking Back

2008-07-10T21:35:00.001-06:00

by Jessica

Thinking back,
I wish I would have known the end.
I just ignored,
The time wasted,
The pathetic waiting.
Clueless, I was to it.
Chuckle at myself I did.
And why could I not see?
A Web of lies spinning before me,
Playing along.
Positive it was a lie,
When you said, you cared.
Wanting out too soon after.
How stupid was I to fall
on ground I knew would be hard
However, I do not blame you
Nor regret anything I said or did
No anger and no sorrow, not anymore.
I unlike you never lied.
I still stand by what I have said
Just wish I would have been
prepared for the fall.
Judging the distance I had,
there was no time to prepare.
Honest I wish I could be, but even now,
Holding back as I always do.
Not wanting anyone to know
Not wanting the concerned looks
Though thinking back,
the fall was worth it.

Lost

2008-07-10T21:24:00.002-06:00

by Tiyona

Tornadoes and hurricanes
My heart aches
My heart has pain
Storm clouds rainy skies
Pour down on puffy cheeks
That say goodbye to a peaceful sleep

Lost in my mind of turmoil,
Someone spilled the oil that started the flame
Internal sorrow, internal misery,
Nothing comes close
to the way I want things to be
Raged filled veins
contain an uncontainable amount of strain
And send me down this drain of sadness
As I drown my heart in the cries that I cry
Continous withful thinking
that time will speed up for the sake of me.

Lost in this world of selfishness and self gain
In a world where everyone takes from me
whatever they can obtain, and do cause they can.
Cause they so willingly know
that my hurt soul can't do a thing about it.

Lost in words that were never spoken
to a man's heart, so that he might understand.
I didnt want him to leave cause I didn't know
how to survive without him near me.
I didnt want him to leave because I didnt want
to fight back the tears that fought back.
I didn't want him to go cause for so long
I hated that I didn't know how to love

Lost is myself - I, me,
as I stand in my desolated rapture alone
Lost is how I'll stay until he comes
and wipes these hollow tears from my face

Weren't, Isn't, Won't

2008-07-10T21:20:00.002-06:00

by Anonymous

you weren't there to see me on stage,
to give me flowers
you just couldn't go for a couple of hours
you're not here when i need you the most
graduation right around the bend,
will you be there then?
you're killing yourself and you know it,
but still you don't stop,
when i see you like that it makes me wonder
how much more time we have together,
if not much, i'll treasure forever
all the little moments we had when i was little,
now you're stuck in the middle
with a choice of life without alcohol
or one that will come to a certain death
please make the right choice
for the ones who love you the most.

What Do You See?

2008-06-19T20:35:00.000-06:00

by Lolo

what do you see when you look at me?
a bright brown eyed girl
pretending to be happy and carefree.
wishing her life wasn't turned upside down.

what do you see when you look at me?
a gang memeber with tattoos
reppin her set where she came from.

what do you see when you look at me?
a lost little girl missing her mommy,
drying up the tears
that ran down her face all night long.

what do you see when you look at me
bruises on my body where they're not supposed to be
marks on my face making me not pretty.

what do i see when i look at me
a girl wanting out of this crazy ass misery
a san jose representer wishin to be free

You Said

2008-06-17T21:16:00.001-06:00

by Sally

You said you would be there for me,
Through good and bad.
I see that isn't true anymore.
You blamed me since it started.
You said it was my fault.
The past two years have been a lie
You said you loved me.
You said you cared.
You said I'm not the same woman
You fell in love with,
That shouldn't matter
If you loved me you would have stayed,
You would have tried to make this work
You said you would be there...