Unfinished Business

by Anonymous

take me as i am or watch me as i go,
i will go,
and you will never hear from me again,
because i am not the kind who waits for you to play with me,
i care far too much about my heart
i thought you knew I would always be there for you
right from the start
so why do i feel like you're using me up ?
Why did you have to drain my flame?
I know you're too ignorant though
and it doesn’t help for me to put blame.
but whenever you feel your ready,
you can come to me, yup that’s right,
i never really left.
that’s the magic of a guarded heart.
the love is guarded and always kept.

Close Your Eyes

by HanHoll

I am envious of a blind man
Because he doesn't have to see the things that we see today
Racism still happening after a battle had already been won
Poverty lining the streets of cities that once gleamed with prosperity
Money wasted while people starve
Wars fought that result in only lives lost and no compromise
Education not being prominent in our lives anymore
New generations equal worse morals and values
So close your eyes and pretend it all isn't here.

Untitled

by Jessi

Just the thought of you makes me weak,
the problem is i think of you everyday of the week.
My heart breaks while my wrists ache.
I cant live like this, weak and vulnerable.
You've got me right where you want me,
cause I'd do anything to see your smile once more.

Untitled

by Tilly T.

its cold yet i feel as if the cold brings me warmth to this yet freezing suffering i feel buried deep inside me. Its been haunting me. Im traumatized by the lights of flashbacks i had that night and i feel so stupid i hadn't called out rape! the never ending stream of tears that flowed down my cheeks flowed down to its very last drip and as i saw my family cry out for me i felt so bad i didn't cry with them. it poured down rain. it was heavy and it wasn't gonna let go it grabbed me by the wrist and tempted me to reach out to the razor and cut like this! so deep it would slit my vein and make me pass out and fall into a never ending abyss. I knew id regret it . but im still hesitant to resist.

Our Love Story

by EM

When I first met you,
i knew nothing about you.
you were just another stranger who was becoming my friend.
time passed and our friendship grew stronger
i got to meet the real you,
your flaws, and your imperfections and i started
falling for you.
i realized i couldnt live without you
thats when we became US
you and I together
everyday you keep reminding me
why I feel in love with you and why I was right
to keep fighting for us instead of giving up
i know our relationship isnt perfect,
but im not looking for perfection
im just looking to love you
and to your source of happiness and trust.
I want to be yours

Do You Feel Me...

by Savannah

I know how it feels;
It truly kills.
Nobody notices
And if they understand,
They just don't care,
It isn't fair.
I want to pull out my hair
And scream
You think I'm mean?
You must believe
This isn't me.
If people made me this way,
Who made them that way?
I'm a hypocrite
And a piece of shit
And I only have you guys to blame.
Why can't I blame myself?
Instead of someone else?
All I can think is
The world's so twisted
As my skin becomes inflicted
With the pain
That I can never name
If I blame someone else's immorality
For my cruelty
Then that would mean
Someone was cruel to them
And someone was cruel to them
And not one of us knows the reason.
I'm trying to pick apart my brain
Cause I might not remain sane
And I don't want to strain
To understand our hearts
Cause my anxiety
Might make me fall apart
There is no point in trying?
Wrong.
There is no point in making yourself weaker
when you're already strong
And this is cliche,
But just hold on
Life goes on.
Though it may drag
Please don't lag.
People are going through
The same thing as you.
In the end,
We're all human
With addictions and afflictions
And we all sin.

I Have Known A Girl

by Prathamesh

I have known a girl
who made me think
Who sometimes wear
a shirt in pink
Through her style
and the way she smile
She caught my heart
in just a while
Through her picture
I looked at her
The things I feel
gets stronger
I tried to turn my sight
on the other direction
But a picture of her face
was always on my illusion
I don’t even know, how could this happen in me
But I know that it’s real
not fake or fantasy
I found a girl
who sets something in me
That I can’t really explain
as far as I could see
As I close my eye, when I lay at night
She’s the only one
who was always on my sight
If only I had, a right time and a chance
I’ll tell my love
for her with a glance
But sadness I think
was there to fill my heart
Because chances were hard to find
and still were apart
I don’t even have time
to hold her near
To whisper my love
I feel to her ear
Now how could I tell
these things I feel
And show to her
my love is real
If I can’t reach her, because the way’s unclear
For guys like me
to her we're near
Each night I lay
in God I pray
To give me chance
and find her way
Wishing each time
with me she stay
Because every time I see her
all my worries fades away
But if chances and time
will never be mine
Through the pen in my hand
I’ll write on each line
To tell this story
through a poem in my mind
About a pretty girl
who really I liked to find
A girl who’s name is written in history books
When the Struggle of Independence start
which I sing all along
A girl whom my heart
really fell in love
Brighter than the stars
from the sky up above
Now I will take time
to end this story
About a girl, who made me think in a day
I’ll just hope and pray
Wishing that someday
A time will come, and cross our way
I have known a girl.. !

I'm Not Sure, I'll Make You Sure

by Christy

When i can be able to see you
I closed my eyes
When i can be able to touch you
I was not moved
When i can be able to speak to you
I was quiet
When finally i can hear "I love You" from you
I ran away

I don't know where i'm going
What a stupid thing
I threw rocks to you when you threw me cupcakes
My favorite thing

I just couldn't accept this
When i have to release my relationship with freedom
Just to be with you
I am afraid
Will i be happy?
Of course this is what i want
But will i?
Promise me, that i won't cry
Do you promise?

I understand that you are scared
But you just have to let go of something good
To get something greater
And that's me
I'll give all my love for you

If you still want to be free
I can give you freedom
I love you and i'll do anything for you
But i just can't do one thing
I can't promise that
No, i can't so i'm sorry
I won't promise that when you're with me
You'll be just so fine
No tears and no sadness
I can't promise it will happen when you're with me
But i can promise you this
Whenever you're sad and cry
I'll be there with you
Hug you, kiss your forehead,
and say that everything's gonna be alright
Along the night
Until you fall asleep
And when you wake up the next morning
I promise
i would still be there
Fall asleep next to you

Torn By Miles, Not By Choice

by Rachael S.

Our love is torn by miles, not by choice
Soon, soon, my darling, I'll be coming back
While on the phone, I love to hear your voice
It is like the world just gave us a smack

How strange to meet as words flashed on a screen
Yet stranger still when love and even passion
How strange on such a phantom friend to lean
Real love, with all the power to refashion

When we're together times are quite good,
Which makes it very hard to be apart
Maybe our love is just misunderstood,
Which means the more suffering in my heart

The Web has given us this special grace:
That love might break the bonds of time and space.

A Love Song for You

by Prathamesh
As I make up my mind,
To write you a song,
Time stands still suddenly,
Making me feel so strong.
Echoing your whispers,
A breeze blows in;
In a moment I am,
In the skies, soaring.
Amidst the skies, I see us, playing;
I watch in your eyes, The love so gleaming.
As I make up my mind, To write you a song,
I strive to be honest;
Not showing off the wrong.
With all my heart darling,
I'd make our love dance;
Walking to the horizon,
Only love we'd glance.
Standing by your side,
'Till the last beat of my life,
Kissing you everyday,
And to make you my wife.
As I make up my mind, To write you a song,
Thankful to God I am, For this love lasting long.
Knowing we are blessed,
Entering His holy trance, O my beloved;
My Good Samaritan.
I see in your eyes blazing,
The love-in-return so rare,
How lovely we do look,
Standing in a pair!
As I make up my mind O dear,
To write you a song;
T's a love poem to you,
This is where I belong..

Love

by EM

Love is a disease
People are infected by it
People are vulnerable because of it
They open their hearts to others
Show them affection and express their feelings
But then, they always end up hurt
Devastated
Wondering if they lost their time
Or if it was worth it
But we never know when or who is going to hurt us
We have to take a chance
Be brave
And accept the consequences

Skeleton

by Lela

Evil are people
Flip evil it just becomes live.
I am the only person I can’t run away from.
But when my body and soul and heart stop and go...
I know what you’ll have SKELETON.

Bodies control our mind.
My mind speaks and doesn’t like my body
And body hates mental
And mental hates devil
Devil is evil, left is my useless skeleton

The Equation Between Us

by Prateek

I want to know,
the equation,
that is between us,
if you,
I can question.
Is it a feeling simple,
as an integer,
or is it complicated,
as the complex number.
Whether is it easy to work,
to be complete and whole,
or is it a fraction,
of your life and world
If we together,
add up to make two,
or with us,
love turns negative.
Is it a calculus,
odd to understand,
do we differ so much,
we can't integrate our lives.
And if we could,
multiply our happiness,
while dividing,
those sad moments.
Can it be,
like the circle with no end,
in the plane same,
with similar coordinates.
If our love,
is a mathematical term to define,
would we be mutually exclusive,
or will it stay infinite.

Transparent

by EM

It is very painful
When you are in the crowd
With people
Your best friends
And you feel like a stranger
You feel like you don't belong there
Like you're not meant to be there
Like you're meant to suffer or even not be there
You feel transparent
You feel non existent

Disguise

by EM

His eyes are beautiful like the sunset
even though they are bright,
I felt them just as dark as the moon.
It gives me chills and a feeling of evil
I can’t believe I've fallen in love
With someone who I am better away from.
Even though I know I should stay away from him,
I can’t help it, I still love him.
But his beautiful eyes
Are just a disguise

Doors

by Anonymous

One day I met this girl
She was so beautiful
She always smiled

I envied her, I still do
She is smart, kind, and strong

But one day I heard the bricks chip
The paint that covered her eyes began to strip
And I saw what she hid

Fear, distrust, pain, and
Her many scars

That was the day I knew
I would break the wall down
I would strip the paint
I would open the door

But I couldn't

The door only opens from the inside

I want to give her the key
I want I open it for her
But I can't

But one day she will open it
She will walk through it

No she will break it down
And she will see the faces
of those who have been waiting

She will see the scratch marks
that she's placed on the door fighting to get out

she will be free

I trust she will open the door
I know she will win the war

But until then
I will patiently wait
Because I trust her
And I love her

Lost

by Vici

When you feel like
Life is playing a
Trick on you

Birds stop singing
Oceans stop moving
The sun not shining
Your Heart is dying

You want to run
But don't know where
You want to scream
It seems too loud...

The walls get higher
Your skin turns red.
Your eyes without bliss
And all you want, all you need is a kiss.

Not on your neck
Not on your mouth
All it should touch
Without control..

Your slowly but definitely dying soul.

You're feeling Lost.

Daddy's Little Girl

by Elana

Things with you have gone down hill.
I thought we got through this "rough patch"
It's more of a rough life with you.
The ups are shorter than the downs.
The minimal good you've done
doesn't come close to the mental damage.
The list of things you should do but haven't
is a lot longer than what you have done .
Your bucket of bullshit lies
is just as full as your bullshit goodbyes.
Congrats it was a good disguise
But for you it's fame over demise
Your story will prolong
And I will slowly move along
Doing what I do best
Taking care of me
Loving myself enough for the both of us and more.
Knowing now that you weren't worth not one tear I shed on you.
Out of the many.
Maybe that was my disguise
Holding that one strand of goodness
Behind my daddy's little girl mask
You kept pulling on my string
Had me going for 15 years and 4 days.
But today I cut that string
And I feel free.

How Me..

by Taylor

How is it that it's always me ?
I always lose everything .
I lost my hopes,
my dreams,
my happiness,
my everything.
I can't seem to find anything.
It all left when you did
When you died it killed parts of me
I can't share feelings with anyone,
I can't be happy,
No longer, can I truly be me

People tell me,
'Find Jesus'
'Find God'
I tell poeple,
'If they exist
I dont want to find them.
If they exist
they never took pity on me,
they never gave me a break.
They must have some sick sense of humor,
to see me suffer
to see me cry at night
do they take joy seeing that sight?'

How could it have been me ?
I'm not religious
Who do I talk to
now that you're gone,
Now that you're dead?
I have no one anymore.
My mom won't listen
won't even look at me.
I practically don't have a dad
And the family I once had,
That's just a pathetic joke now.
All I have to say is,
How, how me of all people
How was I struck
Struck with this, this streak
This streak of such bad luck
How? How?

Too Gone..

by Taylor

Have you ever felt something slowly taking you over? That deep dark feeling that you can't run from. It makes your insides decay and takes you out with it . On the way out it makes your mouth open to scream loud but it all ready rotted your teeth away so you can't speak for yourself . It makes your eyes close cause you can't take the sight of what you're becoming and it makes everyone around you slowly care less and less about you each time they see you like this . You try to hold in the tears but right when you give up you realize it doesn't hurt anymore, not even the cuts you left yourself cause you can't feel emotion or pain, you're already far too gone to be saved... Have you ever felt like me?

The Guilt of My Fault

by Taylor

i used to smoke weed
it gave me happiness
it gave me hope
it gave me what only one person has before
i lie at night just,
just thinking of her.
how we'd talk for hours
and never get bored.
then death came along,
all i could think was,
'this is wrong.
this is wrong!'
i promised i would be there,
that night she OD'd
they waited two days to break the news to me
what'd they think, two last days to be happy? 
well i'll never be happy
it was my fault
this guilt eats at me
it'll never come to a hault
i'm not gonna stop it,
i won't even try
i deserve whatever the higher man throws at me
all i know is,
i definitely don't deserve to be happy

I Am In Love

by Prathamesh

Never had I surmised,
I would fall in love;
It happened so suddenly,
Hardly could I know.
Her eyes were scintillating,
Her hair so sleek;
Time stood still at the moment
I was watching her like a geek.
She spoke with a serenity,
That'd calm the angers of all;
Her voice was so sweet,
Like angels giving you a call.
Her manner was so gentle,
Her walk so fine;
No one would call her human,
She had a touch of The Divine.
Her eyes exploring the Earth,
Glimpsed me anyhow for a moment;
They blinked and glared me back,
I wondered if it be an accident.
From childhood up to now,
I always dreamed of a princess.
Now in reality she was, there
And to my surprise our eyes met.
The meadow around with green lustre,
Bade 'hello' to the masterly beauty.
But her eyes, gently piercing my soul,
I never experienced such a sanity.
The golden sun smiling in the blue sky,
With its rays gleaming over her hair;
Array of perfection she already wore,
Making it a complexion so beautiful, so rare.
Nature-born or God-gifted;
This girl made me fall for her;
I wondered if she be a fairy,
'Had she white wings with white fur?'
At the whole of her sight,
You'd have said she was a dove;
But my heart couldn't stop singing,
"I AM IN LOVE"

For Bayleigh

by Bobby R.

I used to love to look at you,
I used love your laugh,
I miss the way I'd come unglued,
I loved the way we meshed

I loved the honesty we shared,
and living without fear,
I loved the thought of
having you forever, always here

But today I cannot look at you,
not the same now, anyway,
what happened to the way we were,
why did it have to change?

Without you I feel broken,
Like I never will move on,
I was in love with you,
I am now, and may forever be,
please just help me now,
please just help me see.

Change

by Alex

You always see me smiling,
But on the inside I’m really crying.
Nobody knows me,
Nobody understands me.
I’ve never had anybody to talk to.
My dad was never here,
My mom was always working,
None of my friends wanted to talk about feelings,
Then I turned to drugs,
I felt like they were the only things
that would understand me.
They took over my life.
Every day, all day, before school,
even during school, and after school.
I said goodbye to my family and old friends.
I had no more feelings,
I just didn’t care anymore.
Everything seemed so great,
only because I was hiding my feelings behind the drugs.
They controlled everything, my feelings, thoughts, and body.
It was the scariest thing ever, I just didn’t know what to do.
Then I moved away from my family and so called friends.
I finally sobered up.
It was the best feeling ever.
I turned to the best person ever, Jesus.
I stopped living life for myself & started living for him.
Ever since I’ve made that choice I’ve risen to the top.
I can face my feelings and I’m a stronger person,
I’m not afraid anymore.
My family finally loves me and is here for me again.
I love this feeling,
I love the new me.

Say Something

by Naomi M.

I wish
I was there when you needed me
I wish
You were there when I needed you
Now I wish you'd be the one to speak up
But I was the one that cut you out.
And pretended that we were nothing.
But people make mistakes.
And I wish you would say something.

Numb

by Mone

I cannot feel, I want to but I just can't.

Because if I do then all I feel is pain.

I don't wanna feel pain because then I remember.

When I feel pain I have to hold myself together,

So that I don't fall apart.
My heart aches when I feel, so I don't,

I just stop then the pain goes away,

to return another day. Unless just maybe I should let it out;
No I can't, I can't feel that anymore, I can't, I won't.

So I stand still, I don't move, and after a time I go numb again.
It's not easy and I don't like it,

but if being numb means not being in pain, I'll take it.

 

Flaws

by Aminah

Read this, then,
tell me what have you learnt?
i am not a perfect girl,
i was once broken but yet i am not unbroken.
i stay away from crowds.
i have no shadows.
i have left all judgment out of my head.
i don’t know what mind tells me anymore; i listen to what my heart says.
every day, i live my life and the days i have lived pass in minutes.
they all thought they knew me, so i just laughed in my head.
the ones who knew me, knew more about me than i did.
i used to over-think, let it boil until it turned into liquid.
i have made mistakes, i am not perfect.
i try to correct them over and over; it's like they want be perfected.

Ready

by Mudasirbaba

Where is da boundary?
Another century, a rising hope
Where is da bank,
Another century, sweat on my breast
Where is da relief?
My hands are in line
My legs are constant
My head's not heady
My eyes not beady

Bring on da new year
I take it on with no alarm

Quote

by Mudasirbaba

and the darkness engulfs us
and body heat keeps us warm
and each breath is vandalising
the silence around.

He

by Aminah

That feeling I often get when you’re next to me.
That feeling that just won’t go away.
That feeling where,
He brings me roses on Valentine’s.
He whispers the words I love you in my ears.
He calls me every day just to see if I am okay.
He makes me feel more in love with him
Every time I look into his beautiful blue eyes.
He makes me feel less insecure.
He takes my pain and misery away.
Now everything is just plain dull,
He left me without saying goodbye.
Wondering, but knowing he’s never coming back.
Now it’s just me buying red roses on Valentine’s Day
The redness of the flowers reminds me
Of the warmth of my blood constricting in my skin.
He made me fall in love with his everything
And now I am not sure about a second chance at love
But I know for sure that although I have fallen
I would rise again.
He’s probably up there watching me
Over the clouds and stars.

Desolation

by Prathamesh

As I cuddle up on cold nights,
restless; I memorise those kisses and fights.
Life was awesome; with you by my side,
Presently, it is full of lonely rides.
I often walk; aimlessly.
Completely dumbfounded at what I do,
My life has lost its purpose,
It's hard to believe yet true.
Sorrow-stricken me,
With eyes teary wet,
Blaming my mistakes and myself,
For I wrote my own fate.
'No one's perfect',
You used to say.
But I can hardly believe,
It ended this way.
In the pool of solitude,
I often swim,
In search of love,
In search of that 'hope-beam'.
This pool of emptiness,
It's killing me inside,
Drowning in this deadly pool,
With no one to guide.
Return to me
And take me in your lap.
I pray you my love,
I want to be awakened from this nap.
Take me away;
Away from this world of strife,
I really NEED you,
To complete my life.