Talking

by Anonymous

Maybe if you told me,
maybe just once,
maybe then waking up in the morning,
would be,
just a little easier,
notes slip through my fingers,
the notes of your melody,
and i wonder if you even notice
that my eyes can't help but watch you,
my heart wants to love you,
but my head is so unsure,
tell me something i don't know

I'll Be There

by Becca

No matter where you are,
No matter what you do,
I will be there.
Time will pass,
You’ll fall in love,
I’ll be watching from a distance
Your personal angel.
When he breaks your heart,
And tears are pouring down your face,
I’ll be there.
When you pull the trigger,
I’ll put my life on the line
I’ll be there
For you.
Forever.

Too Late

by Kristen

Standing on the edge.
Staring in his eyes.
Watching the waves roll in.
As the tears fill his eyes.
The waves crash at their feet.
People walk down the beach.
He’s unable to say what he wants to say.
Unable to say what’s in his heart.
Pretending that it isn’t real.
So he won’t have to feel.
He can see the pain that is there.
He just chose to ignore it.
Pretending that the pain isn’t real.
Things just seem to be moving too fast.
Moments that don’t last.
Wanting to change the past.
As the sun starts to set.
Tears form in her eyes.
He slowly starts to walk away.
She stands staring at the sky.
Wondering how things got this way.
Not knowing what to say to make him stay.
The waves crash against the shore.
As her heart shatters.
Watching as he walks away.
She steps close to the waves.
He never looked back.
Just continued to walk away.
As she walked into the waves.
Wanting her pain to disappear.
Wanting to no longer be able to feel.
Looking back one last time
at the boy who broke her heart.
He’s still walking down the beach.
As the waves drag her down.
Being pulled under without a fight.
Getting farther from the light.
He stops and turns around.
Hoping to see her one last time.
People begin shouting,
she’s going to drown.
As he runs back to the shore.
She can’t be seen anymore.
He begins calling out her name.
As he walks into the waves.
Searching for some sign.
That he isn’t too late.
That he still has a chance. As
she rises to the surface.
He reaches out his hand.
Praying that she will forgive him.
And open her heart once again.
As he grabs her hand
the waves pull her down.
Thinking he will lose her again
he pulls her towards him.
Looking into eyes that no longer shine.
He carries her to the shore.
Praying for one more chance.
Hoping he hasn’t lost her yet.
People start to crowd around.
As he tries to save her life.
Finally saying all the things
he wanted to say.
Saying the words she wanted to hear.
Just saying them a little too late.
As her mind starts to cloud.
All she can hear is his voice.
His words that he finally said.
His voice telling her to fight.
Her eyes grow tired.
As she blocks out the world.
His tears are falling on her face.
Wishing to turn back time.
Wanting her to understand.
That even though it went unsaid.
She meant everything to him.
She was his reason for living.
Praying to god to take him instead.
Not wanting her to be taken from him.
Hoping for a miracle.
As she slowly starts to slip away.
Telling her how much
he needs her to stay.

Love and Everything

by Melissa

The sky may fall, the stars may, too
but in the end i will still love you.

When things go wrong and life turns tough
and no one is thinking about me
i close my eyes, open my heart,
you're the angel that i see

What I Dream of Doing

by Ida

I imagine, before I die, the things
I’ve always dreamed of doing
I desire that this life
I will live peacefully and slowly
But the world is not like that
So I would have to let it go

I dream of soaring and gliding freely
With my own liberty, up above all ignorant humans
To fly up to the circular yet rough moon
and take in the sight of its pure fascination

I want to go to the magnificent
Bahamas and wonderful Jamaica
To be entertained and relaxed
in sublime trips to Tokyo or San Francisco
I want to enjoy as much as I can,
like furry, selfish squirrels preparing to
embrace the snowy time of hibernation

To go extreme shopping with worthy friends
And visit more than a thousand
hot spots before the dire end
I dream of snowboarding
down the Appalachian like a crazed maniac
I lust to watch a sensational Yankees game
And to wildly root for them with a Hammy face
As well as rocketing up through the Milky Way,
like a hyper dog to a lake

I pray that I will have enough time
To say goodbye to this cruel, spiteful world
I have to quickly seize the day
Before the obnoxious grave is swiftly dug
Where I will lay
For no human can predict the future,
No one knows what will happen the next
All I can do is to keep my fingers crossed
for the absolute best

What If

by Candise

What if i told you the reasons behind my actions,
would you laugh and call me a freak
or would you accept me?

What if i said i still missed you,
would you feel the same
or just laugh and walk away?

What if i went to you in a time of need,
would you help or just ignore me
or make it worse?

What if i came to you and told you i still loved you,
would you return my feelings
or would you crush them again?

There are so many 'what ifs' in the world
and so many wonders unanswered,
but still we add and add
to that growing population.

My Little Glass Jar

by Rebecca

Clear
Shiny
Calm
My little glass jar
Perfect role model
No wining
No complaints
Does as it’s told
Held by others
Not a care in the world
But then
One day
It breaks

Digging into all who held it
Targeting the ones who cared
Leaving scars
To never heal

Those who wouldn’t touch it
Those who hated with no reason
Are left
Not a scar
Not a scratch
Not a care

Life of A Teenage Girl

by Kytasia

Life is full of thrills ,
And life can be rough,
Yet life is full of chills
And life can be tough.
Making decisions.
Fulfilling your dreams,
Choosing your future,
Isn't easy as it seem,
Dealing with the pressure
Dealing with school
As people criticize you,
They make you look like a fool,
Drama, Gossip
Floating around,
People talk
No truth to be found,
Hanging out with friends,
So the fun never ends,
Never drink and drive.
It'll save more lives.
Be careful who you trust...
Take a risk if you must,
Share all your laughter
Why frown when it take
less energy to smile
Forget all your problems
I believe that it's better that way.
Just know who you are.
Believe that you can make it
Life your life the fullest.
And try not to stress it.

Before

by Maria

I don't care about you anymore,
Anything we had is now before,
So I'm gonna show you to the door.
I know your heart feels very sore,
And it's so very hard to ignore,
But things with us just ain't too sure;
Our situation is just too poor.
I wish things were as before,
Just you, me, and no one more.

Her New Best Friend

by Hannah

Utterly confused and lost,
She walks this world alone,
Unsure of what path to take.
She turns from God,
As her friends and family,
Turn from her.
All the seems to be left
Is depression and darkness.
Anorexia and pills dont seem to work.
They only leave her hungry and loopy.
So she decides to try something
All together new.
The razor becomes her new best friend.
It's now in her hands,
Moving closer to her arm.
She can feel the sting
And the release of blood,
As the razor slices
Open her skin.
While stumbling over in pain,
She finally reliazes the answer to her prayers.
Once again she is finally able
To feel again.

Actuality

by Sophie

In this world of stark reality,
What should I take or leave,
What is actuality,
And what is make-believe?

This place is so familiar,
The feelings it brings are not,
How can I carry on like before,
When there is something I forgot?

Who knows what it is I’m missing,
But there’s a gap that proves it is,
These tears aren’t of sadness,
They’re of this thing I can’t but miss.

Find the problem,
And solve its source,
We learn to do this often,
But when I’m weak then with what force?

In this world of stark reality,
What should I take or leave,
What is actuality,
And what is make-believe?

You Give Me Something

by Anonymous

you give me something
something to believe in
something to love
something to adore
you say you won't break me down
but you lied
you return
and I am broken down
into a million pieces
crying in my corner
you return
and build me up again
and the cycle begins
over and over

Who Am I?

by Anonymous

who am i to follow what everyone else does? who am i to speak my mind? who am i?

who are you to say fit in! to promote being average or even stand out for attention. where are the people who are true to themselves?

i have realized i have been sucked into a void of never ending, always changing "he said, she said, love isnt fair, this is in, this is out" world. no place to be yourself...am i right?

i am one who holds out on most of my thoughts, most of my opinions, because i will be criticized, catergorized, and rejected by society.

WE ARE BLIND. WE CANNOT SEE THAT WEN WE TELL PEOPLE TO BE THEMSELVES HALF OF THEM DECIDE TO BE SOMEONE ELSE IN FEAR OF REJECTION FORM THEIR COMMUNITY!

where is hope? the only hope to bring back originality is to be yourself and be true to yourself 100% of the time, because even they, even the "jocks" or "preps" or "emos" or nerds cant label you because there isnt a single word that can even begin to describe your complex or simple unique personality - who you really are.

but once in a blue moon there is a person. a person who is real, a person who doesnt have an ego, who doesnt care about being popular, or pretty, or noticed. they are who they are and people get shocked, curious, and even angry, possibly because they dont know why they dont want to fit in.

who wants to fit in in a world of strange, abnormal, mysterious places? who wants to be the wallpaper of the white house or a rare palace? who wants to be the attention-getter and be rebellious just to get attention? i know i cannot truly be myself or else id be called an attention-getter. which i am not.

i want to speak my mind. i do. i want to stand up and say this isnt right. i want to. i will. because from now on i am not going to follow the crowd. i am not going to hold out on my thoughts. i am going to be, for once in a long time, me.

i am me, who are you?

Ten Little Gymnasts

by Anonymous

Ten little gymnasts were all fine
one flipped into the foam and then there were nine.

Nine little gymnasts went for a skate
one fell down and then there were eight.

Eight little gymnasts all thought about heaven
one went up there and then there were seven.

Seven little gymnasts were all doing kicks
one over-stretched and then there were six.

Six little gymnasts learned how to dive
one drowned and then there were five.

Five little gymnasts went through the door
one didnt and then there were four.

Four little gymnasts were climbing a tree
one slipped and then there were three.

Three little gymnasts had a mother named Lou
one ran away and then there were two.

Two little gymnasts weighed a ton
one was too big and then there was one.

One little gymnasts was having fun
she got tired and then there were none!

Internal Evil

by Anonymous

how can
thoughts be so powerful?
a wicked curse but the truth
laid in front of him always.
how can we be so cruel?
the vicious deed of murder
as bad as threatening;
just as bad in the conscience,
for HE hears it.

Recall

by Breana

I recall on what was once a bliss
Smiling faces great gifts sealed with kisses
Then I dwell on my hell
as the toll of bells called lies ring
Then I hear the bells called hatred
Followed by deceit
Next come the toll of bells called pain
And I remember how you inflicted so much upon me
All through all the lies
You were telling me
And through all the pain you continue to bring
And through all my tears
Running
And through all my smiles fading
Only to find that if I pray
My troubles won't last always...

I Thought I Knew You

by Anonymous

I guess
i thought
but it isn't true
i always thought
i knew everything about you.
So much you can learn in one night
you see?
No you dont cuz you dont really care about me.
I learned the times you tried
and all the times you lied
i heard those things and almost cried
cuz
in my head i knew that wasn't you
but who knew?
i guess
especialy not me.
i heard all those things they said
all those things you did.
i wanted
to shout
i wanted to
scream
i wanted to defend you
but when have you ever defended me?
i guess you're someone
i just don't know
at least not anymore
you slammed that door
so long ago.
i guess
i
wanna break free
from that barrier
separating
you and me!
But
you don't.
You wanna do it your way
following the crowd
or following the sway.
Just be yourself for once
i'm hoping and praying
this is not who you have become.
so how am i supposed to
make this easy?
tell me about the part
where you decided to forget
about me.

Struggle to Be Strong

by Angel

Who am I to pretend,
When my world is coming to a crashing end,
I was foolish and I was fooled,
To think a guy like you could ever be true,
You know what to say,
To keep my thoughts at bay,
Now my tears,
Are oh so hard to bare,
Sometimes I wonder if you ever cared,
But now I'm gonna take flight,
And finally reach the light,
I'll finally reach for the stars,
And won't be stuck behind these bars,
I learned to be strong,
When everything else is wrong,
I learned to believe,
When you where there to decieve,
I am so above love,
Because with you it will never be real,
I finished the deal.

Hazel Eyes

by Anita

You see these pretty eyes
but you want to know what lies
behind these hazel eyes,
You may see a cover
that is oh so beautiful on the outside
but just as heartless and cold on the inside.
You must never know the fire
that is behind my hazel eyes.
The pain, the guilt, the suffering,
and the tears of my past years
Oh yeah, I've been there.
The hate in my anger,
the bitter in my passion,
and the tough in my love.
That is what lies behind these hazel eyes.

by Esperanza

You tell me that I'm a child
and will never grow up
You tell me I have no voice, no choice
Who cares though luck
You tell me I'm always wrong,
you're always right
You try to tear me down,
but realize the more you do,
the more you see it's wrong
You tell me I can't when I already have
I shouldn't when you know I'll do it
You can't win, neither can I
Hey, the world isn't fair
You have no choice, no voice, who cares,
though luck...

Right Here, Right Now

by Perla

i'd rather be in my room,
when all i can do is think of you.
not another day goes by
when i can't see your smile.
right here, right now!
is were you should be
right here, right now!
we were meant to see
when your're away, so faraway,
all i can do is fade away.
you're the light
that makes my darkness disappear
when you're right there.
right here, right now!

What's Real When...?

by Tiffany

What’s real when you’re left to pretend?
What’s real when life is comin’ to an end?
What’s real when there’s a letter you never send?
What’s real when there’s a heart that will never mend?
What’s real when you’re living a fantasy?
What’s real when you can’t really see?
What’s real when it’s just you and me?
What’s real when it was meant to be?
What’s real when Love is at first sight?
What’s real when you’re flying an invisible kite?
What’s real when you’re alone at night?
What’s real when you take off for flight?
What’s real when you look above?
What’s real when there’s something you cove?
What’s real when in the sky there’s a dove?
What’s real when there's someone you love?
What’s real when accidents occur?
What’s real when you’re not sure?
What’s real when there’s exposure?
What’s the real answer?
What’s real when you only have one shoe?
What’s real when you don’t know who?
What’s real when it’s to good to be true?

What’s real when the answer to these questions is you?

You're real, you're real to me.

God's Promise

by Samson

God never promised days without pain,
laughter without sorrow or sun without rain.
But God did promise strength for the day,
light through dark, and a guide for the way.
And all who believe in his kingdom up above...
He answers their faith...
With everlasting love.

Lately

There is this crazy thing called life
Lately, its bringing me down
And everytime I turn around
I feel the weight of the world
Its sitting on my shoulders
Its yanking at my heart

And when I close my eyes
I can picture something better
I can picture it all come together
But when I open my eyes
It all goes back again
Just like that

I cant change the past
I'm not happy at the present
And I'm starting to doubt the future
Things dont look to bright
But I keep on wishing

I cant say I'm doing well
No, I cant say I'd rather die
But lately, I can feel the pain
Trying to keep it down
But it keeps coming back up

I cant cry this time
Trying to stay strong
Cant make any promises
Cause last night
I almost felt a tear

The world has been spinning lately
Cant keep my head straight
No one to blame
Just the way it goes
Life is just that way

Summer Gone Again

by Victoria

The hot summer rain is falling on my window pane
I cant stop myself from falling
Falling for you again
My soul is yearning for your taste
Your arms to slip around my waist
But I know that you wont be there in the morning

I hate how much I love you,
I hate that I dont hate you.
I've got every reason to hate you,
now the wine starts to kick in.
I pour myself another glass
and hope this pain will come to pass
but you will forever be my golden boy.

The veil of night is slowly falling
as time drives me insane
I cant stop myself from falling,
head over heels again.
My heart is sore, I cannot sing
I sit and wait for the phone to ring
But I know that you wont be there if I call you.

You're always to blame for my aching heart,
and tears were predicted from the start,
i just hoped that you would be there
to stop the tears from falling.
Falling. Falling.

My thoughts of you are slowly falling
and the tears roll down again.
I cant stop myself from falling
for your smooth green eyes again.
Now the summers gone again,
its time for us to part,
and by next spring sometime
wine will have healed my broken heart.

But you will forever be my golden boy.

Lost

by Kuni

She lives in the depths of despair
Is she wallowing there?
Looking for which way to turn,
she sees a sign and doesn’t
Hide because deep inside, she’s still alive
Walking, slowly, swiftly now
Will she make it or be found?
Lost in a world with no one to care
Lost in a place she thought she could bear
Following the road and she thinks of her head
Filled with sorrow and dread
Forgetting the past, dwelling on the future
But for now, she lives in the depths of despair
Knowing she won’t always stay wallowing there.

I Was Nervous

by Melanie

i was nervous, and unprepared.
i didn't know people like you existed.
i would worry, worry all the time
who was i and what would i become.
he came into my pathetic life and made sunshine.

all i prayed for and everything i dreamed.

i am me and i can be okay with that now.

About You, But Not For You

by Rachel

It’s 3:38 and the bell rings
releasing me into the jungle
of downtown Pittsburgh’s mess.
Kids from everywhere congregate
on corners inhaling cigarettes,
waiting for buses and meeting
friends from rival schools.
I think of you as I stand with
the cold wind brushing my legs,
my CAPA pants rolled up to my
knees. If you were here, you’d keep
me warm.

Tall buildings loom
up over small ones, keeping shadows
over most of the streets. The sun does
little to warm us. Shannon laughs in my
ear as she recites lines from Chicken Little,
our favorite movie: Four views in twenty-four hours,
an accomplishment made by the two of us over
Christmas break.

The bus comes, spraying slush up onto the sidewalk,
we climb in through the back doors
scrambling to find a seat. I sit next to
Shannon, our laughter carrying over
from our outside conversation.
The bus driver looks in her mirror
yelling to the back,
“Put the food away before I pull this bus over!”
Shannon and I sneak our chips, sipping our drinks
behind Jesse and Jeremy.
We laugh with them, their jokes
and party anecdotes spilling like
coffee from their lips. I smile
blushing, they’re cute but not like you.

There is a pause in conversation and I
get a chance to look out the window.
The sidewalks are littered with snow,
black slush covering the streets.
The trees are bare. Pittsburgh is ugly
in winter even though you refute
my opinion.

The bus pulls into Morningside,
and I pull the yellow bell rope
staggering my way up to front,
waving goodbye to
Shannon, Jesse, and Jeremy.
You would be jealous if you saw me
blush the way I do for them when
they wave back. I show the bus driver my
pass, say “Thank You” and jump
down onto the street, scrambling to
reach the sidewalk before the bus starts
pulling away. I walk down about four
houses and look up at my three-
story brick house looming over me.
I push the white gate that you
constantly bang shut back and
trek carefully to the steps, afraid
of the ice that might be
hiding under the snow; our
footsteps frozen from the morning.
I knock on the door, it’s Monday,
dad’s at work. I pull out my keys on
my GO ARMY key chain, my
Kiss Me I’m Irish key chain, and my
‘Stop Starring, They Don’t Talk’ key chain.
I pick the Trib PM up off
of the cold porch, unlocking the door
unleashing the warmth upon me,
and carry it inside with me,
peeling away the plastic. I flip
to my horoscope hoping
it will resemble something having
to do with you. It doesn’t and I toss
it on the side of the couch so
dad can read it when he comes home.

I pick the remote control up
turning on What I Like About You.
I retreat into the kitchen looking
for some type of fuel until
dinner comes along; something
to keep me going to accomplish my
unwanted homework. I pop something
in the microwave and go back to the
couch, waiting for it to get done.
Your smile lingers in my mind,
your laughter replaying over and over
in my ears. I smile.
The microwave bell dings.
One last thought before I let you go:
I love you, I’m sure of it.

She

by Anonymous

she didnt understand

she was too confused

just so afraid

afraid to lose

her love

her friends

she thinks

it's the end

she didn't know

she didn't see

when to go

and when to leave

memories flashed

the blade ripped her wrist

her face turned

into an unimaginable twist

a tear slipped down

off her cheek

she cut again

she thought she was weak

a drop of blood hit the ground

she slit her throat

and made no sound

now her face

is black and blue

she was emo

who were you?

Sylvia

by Elisa

Sylvia,
It saddens me to think that
the world did not accept you.
Life’s a dizzy dance that spins
round and round. The mind blurs and
soon there is no distinction
between what is and what is not.
Those high institutions crowned you,
the flashing lights were drawn to you.
Yet somehow you
still questioned the meaning of
success—What is it?
Perhaps someday I will learn something
you knew not (that success is
acceptance of the world.) But
until then I will carry your memory like a
black, deflating balloon that hangs over me.
(The question is, am I saddened by it
or inspired?)

No Clue

by Derek

If beauty's skin deep and brains are forever
Then let's lie in bed and think together
Your beauty's unbounded and your wisdom unspoken
Let's lie around and fix bonds broken
My problem is that you love me no more
But just for me, clarify the score
You've taken my love and captured my heart
And in its wake you left not even a spark
But hate you I can't and never will
For my feelings for you can't ever stay still
The flame of this heart can never quell
Even when I feel unwell
My love has no limits but neither does your hate
So all I can do is sit here and wait
You think I don't fight but you are wrong
If I had my way I'd fight all day long
24/7 365 days a year
It wouldn't be a chore, it would be my career
I'd dedicate my life to winning your heart
And these three words will be my start:
I LOVE YOU