by Kristan
I am tearing my family apart
The ones I love with all my heart
Is it my fault he touched me
He changed everything I was supposed to be
For her I have lost
I want her back at all costs
For my grandma he has hurt
All he did was treat her like dirt
When I look in the mirror I feel ugly and fat
I never wanted that
He wanted lust
Because of that I am filled with disgust
She has always been there for me
Now she won't even look at me
It hurts more everyday
I don't even have words to say
My friends don't understand this
Which makes me really pissed
Trying to understand and feel
But I am so lost, don't know how to heal
How do I get my life back
My nightmares give me panic attacks
I don't know how to get better
I have tried writing many letters
All I do is hurt and cry
All my thoughts are I wanna die
sweetie i know how you feel. this has happened to my twice already. and no one beleieved me either, but you need to let go. You cant let what happened in the past rule you. Even if you are not near the person who has done this to you he will still win, because you are letting him hurt you emotionally. And it wasnt your fault. It was completley this person's fault. and once you talk about it to someone who will listen and not judge you will feel so much better. I'm not going to tell you to forget it ever happened but learning to accept that it happened, and you can move on and make your own life beautiful and realize it was never your fault you'll truely be free from the nightmares that haunt you.
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