Grief

by Shannon

It hit me in an instant

The cold steel fracturing

my being

Breath taken

Flailing to survive

I sunk...

The car hit her in an instant

The pain hit us.

The Person I'll Never Know

by Emily

I never expected to want to stay here, so far from home. 

But in those short moments when we talk, I don't feel so alone. 

It's probably not meant to be, only a dream. 

I'm scared I'll wake up and won't remember the eyes 

that tell stories and a smile that never lies. 

But that's all I'm allowed to feel.

I wonder what it would be like to touch you, 

See if you're real. 

We'll separate soon, and I'll cry, 

Because the person I wanted to know, 

Will have to say goodbye.

He

by Sam

Why am I so crazy about this one strange guy?

It seems that every time I'm with him, 

time just flies by. 

He's quirky and outgoing.

He sings and plays guitar. 

But if I tell him how I really feel, 

I will have gone too far.

Hopefully we'll just be perfect

When he sees who I really am.

He'll laugh and talk and smile and walk 

And just love me for being Sam.

4Him

by Anja

Is it better this way?

When I'm dying every day.

Loneliness likes to stay

Do you want me to walk away?

Don't leave me hanging

In this world that's ever changing

Can't you see I'm fading?

Please take care of my heart that's been bleeding.

Will I have no more tears to cry??

Will I never hear you say "goodbye"?

Or will we never have another try?

Will you ever turn and walk away?

Will you not rescue me today?

All I want for you is to stay,

Until the end of the day.

Daddy I Miss

by Danielle

A Father's Touch, 

A Daddy's Kiss,

A Grieving Daughter,

You're Truly Missed. 

An Empty House, 

An Empty Chair, 

My Daddy's Love 

No Longer There. 

A Broken Heart, 

Tear Filled Eyes, 

Another Soul 

To Fill The Sky. 

Many Memories 

In My Mind, 

Some I Laugh, 

Some I Cry. 

The Times We Shared, 

The Laughs We Had,

Things I Miss
When I Think Of You Dad. 

Realizing That's All I Have 

To Hold On To,
Only Memories

Of What Was Once You. 

Missing Your Laugh, 

I Will Never Again Hear

This Is The Reality 

That Fills Me 

With So Much Fear. 

No More Smile 

On Your Face

No More Warmth 

Of Your Embrace. 

The Last Hug, 

The Last Kiss,

The Last "Goodbye"

Leaves Me With
One Last Wish. 

To Have You Daddy
Here Today 

Never To Leave 

Your Daughter This Way. 

A Father's Touch, 

A Daddy's Kiss,

A Grieving Daughter,

You're Truly Missed.

Love

by Taylor 

I'll tell you,

love is when you want to be with someone 
so bad that you'll do anything.

it means that you don't want anyone other than that person.

you think about them all the time,

wondering if they feel the same,

but you never truly know how they feel,

which hurts when you find out they don't feel the same way.

and no matter how hard you try...

you can never truly get them off your mind.

the worst part about it...

is that you never stop searching for someone better,

when you know that isn't possible...

but when time comes to move on,

don't go looking for someone new;

let them find you....

Icarus

by Jason

I was young
innocent
even naïve, when I first met Her;
a beautiful white dove
with wings like an angel
and eyes blue as the sky.
She gave me wings;
she taught me
how
to fly
Floating
Soaring
with Her
always by my side.

And then she left me.

And my wings disappear
and I’m falling,
Falling,
the wind tearing at me
the empty endless sky
my only witness
falling down
to the rock hard ground
of Reality.
Slowly I stand up
and pick up the pieces
of my shattered soul
and begin anew.

Storms of November

by November 

Fighting the world with all my might

Hoping to stay alive for just another night

Feeling the innocence soon to be conceived

The face of that man living inside of me

Looking at my future ahead

Almost gone as good as dead

Remembering all the pain and tears

Using the white stuff to take away fears

starring into the city of strangers

They don't care about me or my anger

Trying hard not to remember

Crying during the storms of November

That Summer

by Alex

i watch the sunrise and think of you; of us.
i remember us barefoot, us in the rain, us watching the stars.
now i know i'd take back the words i have said.
especially the ones said to you.

Desire

by Matt

The feeling of euphoria washes over me
Like when Hurricane Katrina came up to New Orleans.
And I know all you out there will find that offensive,
But right now my mind is on things much more extensive
Than your puny unintelligent ignorant opinions
Because in my eyes, you all are just stupid mindless minions.
You don't know what is like, to be like me
And really, really wish, that you could see,
Why I happen to decide to do the things that I do,
And why it looks like everyday I'm feeling so blue.
But I know that by now to you I'm worthless and scum,
And I also know I'm still worth something to some,
The ones I sell to and buy to anytime that I please,
And my dog and my girlfriend who's really a sleaze,
So maybe before you go making your petty judgments,
You'll notice that the heart that keeps me going has multiple dents,
Because I hope that, one day, I'll be saved,
From this one stupid drug that I've always craved.
I'm writing this all down from my room all alone,
Waiting for my nonexistent wife to come home.
Because the drug that I desire is a drug you can't make,
But everyone needs and some people make it seem fake,
The drug that I want and the drug that I need,
Is the drug that would explain it to you all indeed.
It is the reason why I am such a pitiful being,
And right now I cannot believe what I'm seeing.
Because I think my true dealer has come to stay,
The one girl I love just stopped my death and decay.

One Man

by Chelsea

It was a dark night in September,
And yet she could still remember,
The pain she had inflicted,
To the one man that was gifted,
He was the only man, who knew,
What she had been going through,
A fate worse than death,
Her soul did not dare rest,
Glancing over her shoulder,
Her body grew colder,
She sensed that someone was there,
She felt eyes on her everywhere,
Casting eyes over to the shadow,
She had a feeling that she’d know,
The man hiding in the corner,
Slowly stepping closer,
She knew him at a glance,
The man she’d met by chance,
Five years he had been gone,
For her it was too long,
She could see into his heart,
Knowing she had no part,
The man she once knew,
Was staring right on through,
One word escaped his lips,
As he moved his finger tips,
“Betrayed”
To her it was treason,
She thought of what had died,
Beneath those bloodshot eyes,
He looked more ghost than man,
He slowly lifted his hand,
He held a single rose,
And made her cold down to her toes,
He dropped it on the floor,
And slowly turned towards the door,
She knew he meant to leave,
And she knew that she would grieve,
For all the love he once had shown,
To the woman who let out a groan,
She had given up her life,
For the man who now had a wife,
Beaten and betrayed,
She tried to call his name,
He slowly turned to stare,
At the woman who never cared,
He turned around once more,
And walked firmly out the door,
She fell onto her knees,
And let out sobbing pleas,
Knowing he was lost,
And crying at the cost,
The man whom she had snubbed,
And the one man she had loved.

Stay True

by Isaac

These are the facts
too hard to follow
but I will find a way
so stay true
I'm not looking for attention
just compassion
This is how it feels to be me
empty inside
so I'll try to stay true
don't matter that they judge you
they're not any better than me or you
so forget what they say
those words seem to make
my self esteem seem to fade
I'll try to be true
I'll be true,
but won't say the truth
They call me a corrupter
just think
Maybe I'm the corrupted
Are you calling me cause i'm calling you
just stay true
I got shoe's that fit me not you
mine are too small for you
I'll stay true,
but won't say the truth.

Too Late

by Isaac

it's too late for you
to make it right inside all these
i used to be willing to die for you,
but I no longer cry for you
I act like i'm fine
underneath this skin i scream
I'll break all these damn mirrors
can't stand myself
i hate myself
I'm going through some changes
I don't know what they are,
but I keep flowing through em
I walk around, people always staring
Just take a sleeping pill or I can't sleep
slit my wrist to make myself have some justice
doesn't make sense except in the moment
I'll never get a chance again
so i'll just say the truth
i fuckin hate you.
it's just too late

Till I Run Dry

by Isaac

till i collapse
i'ma fight,
but i ain't a fucking fighter
just a fuckin loner
i ain't the corrupted
i'm the corrupter
i'm no longer the influenced
but this time the
influencer
they all say
"say no 2 drugs"
why don't you help me
and i wont take that road
but too late now to say you're sorry
because it's all gone
i'm gone faster than a fawn

Why?

by Destiny

I don't know what's going on
nor can I explain why
but I'm tired of all the endless nights
where all I can do is cry.

My life is a crossroad,
I don't know where to turn,
and I'm too afraid to step in the fire,
because I might get burned.

The things you say,
the things you do,
are not just hurting me
but hurting others too.

One day I won't be here,
you won't see me anymore,
you'll sit there from the window,
watching me walk out the door.

You're tearing this family apart,
and we'll never be the same,
you're toying with all our lives,
Come on now, this isn't a game.

My heart is starting to hurt,
and I may begin to cry,
But before I do, tell me one thing,
why?

Bitter End

by Z.B.

I asked for a ride
You left me abandoned
I asked for a smile
You made me cry
I asked for warmth
You threw me into a blizzard
I asked for shelter
You left me homeless
I asked for happiness
You filled me with grief
I asked for my life
You threw me into the jaws of death
Now one last time I ask you
To forgive me
For chasing after you

Life Without You Won't Do

by Hannah

You're without a doubt
All I dream about
Not loving you is like blacking out
Forgetting about you is harder than you know

I fell for you hard
You caught me off guard,
left me hanging in the air

Your lips pushed me over the edge
Now I know I can't live without you
I know I can't breath without hearing your voice
over the phone or hearing you whisper in my ear

Fell in love with you
There was nothing I could do
You made me fall hard and I didn't think anyone
could make me feel more alive

You were all I needed
I'd do anything for you
I will love you forever
through wherever life takes us

What happened to that
Can you hear my heart break
Because I can feel it
but I can't take it

I didn't mean to you what you meant to me
My eyes didn't make you feel alive
As yours did to me
As you played my heart and left me aching

Life can't be worth living
When you're not here to live it with me
I can't do it without you
And I can't take the empty feeling you left with me

Breaking Up

by Kristan

I regret how I treated you
You broke my heart too
I love you so much
I miss your touch
I want to hate you
I wish I would have knew
That all you wanted to do was play
I wish you would have said the words you had to say
Why did you hurt me?
And ruin everything we was supposed to be
Why did you throw everything away?
We could still be together this very day
I want everything back
I don't want love to lack
Why did you send me away with tears
You didn't make anything clear
You said we were meant to be?
Why did you use me?
You shouldn't have lied
about what we were suppose to be.
I have lost you
I'm sorry for everything I do.
What is it about her?
Is there something wrong with me?
I want what we used to be.
I don't want money, sex, I want your love
Your love sent to me from above.
Who are you when I'm not looking?
I want to watch you on the couch facebooking
I want you home with me
Things need to go back to the way they used to be
Together forever in my heart.
No one should have torn that apart.

Pain That Rules

by Kelsie

It's pain that affects me
Stress that rules me
Hate that gives me all the rage to blow
Want to escape..
Need to escape..
Before I start rolling down that hill
Walking down that dark path
I pray for my mental state to die down
I pray that my body keeps going
That I stop rolling
That one day waking up was not as hard
One day I looked at life with different eyes
One day I felt pleasure and happiness once again
If I could make anything in this world go away
It would be the thoughts that almost killed me
The pain, that doesn't hurt anymore
Get out of my head, make this life go away
And replace me with a new mind and look with new eyes

My Recovery

by Kristan

I am not the same person I was before
My recovery has opened a lot of doors
Picking up that white key tag was great
Even though I was late
I could pick up those drugs anyday
But I choose to say that drugs are ***
Why do I do the things I do?
This question I dont have the answer to
Change takes time
Time is all mine
I might not ever get all better
That is why I am writing this letter
I am me
This is the person I will forever be
Maybe I did it to cover the pain
Maybe I did it to keep me sane
No matter what I did it for
I don't want to do it anymore
I want to be clean for me
I want to show everyone what I can be
I know I can say I want to try
I really want this
I will do anything so I don't die
I know some days I am going to sigh
And feel like I wanna die
But I am not going to get high
I am going to live everyday and try not to lie
To all those so called "friends" I say bye
Today I am not going to get high
Just for today
That's all I have to say

Note From A Victim

by Maddy

everyone sees me in this upsetting light,
everyone sees this light growing dimmer and dimmer
as people keep making fun of me.
but yet they don't try to help.
they have their eyes, and they see me,
they have ears, they hear it..
all the lies and the jokes,
but they wont believe me.
i'm wearing a mask to give me a disguise,
it starts and lasts all day;
why wont it just go away?
all the laughter and comments.
i try to say there is no pain,
i try to be strong for the ones
i need to be an example for.
who are you to pick my soul apart?
i wonder if you realize that you and i are just the same,
making me cry is worse than suicide.
i remember when i loved school, i remember always going
and being upset when i got sick because i missed a day.
but that all changed in high school.
everyone says im too ugly, too fat, or my hair is ugly.
well in my eyes i am, but i am more than just that.
you don't even understand the stuff ive been through.
everyday i'm suffering, because of what you all say to me,
this time you re not the victim, its me.
this is my life and ive realized, i did no harm.
but don't worry about me,
im just some girl that has people who have ruined her life.
they don't even take the blame
they just live knowing they are hurting am innocent person.
they put me through all this torture that i don't deserve.

My Molestation

by Kristan

I am tearing my family apart
The ones I love with all my heart
Is it my fault he touched me
He changed everything I was supposed to be
For her I have lost
I want her back at all costs
For my grandma he has hurt
All he did was treat her like dirt
When I look in the mirror I feel ugly and fat
I never wanted that
He wanted lust
Because of that I am filled with disgust
She has always been there for me
Now she won't even look at me
It hurts more everyday
I don't even have words to say
My friends don't understand this
Which makes me really pissed
Trying to understand and feel
But I am so lost, don't know how to heal
How do I get my life back
My nightmares give me panic attacks
I don't know how to get better
I have tried writing many letters
All I do is hurt and cry
All my thoughts are I wanna die

Chris

by Kristan

You took away all the pain
I love you so much it drives me insane
I love the way you make me feel
Because of you I healed
Never have I felt this way
God, the love I feel for you each day
I would do anything for you
And I know you would too
I love the way you treat me
You are the only one that has the key
I never want to part
All it would do is break my heart
You drive me so wild
I can't wait to have our first child
I could never make up
For what you have done for me
But that you don't see
You are the best I have ever had
For that I am so glad
I have never fell in love so fast
I hope it will last
I am head over heels in love with you
I feel you are too
You picked me up when I was down
Whenever I am with you I don't frown
I want you to be mine forever
I want you to say forever and ever
I want to be your wife
For the rest of your life
I want kids and to be a mother
And for you to never love another
You have the key to my heart
You better never ever tear that apart

Life

by Kristan

Why do girls want to be fat or thin?
Why be happy every now and then?
Life is short, not that long
Admit your wrongs
No harm or fear
Drop every tear
Make life great
Never miss any date
Have fun
For your life has just begun
Never believe another who hurts you
What they say is not true
You know what you are
Even though words leave scars
Some friends stab you in the back
So trust is really hard not lack
Love hard and kiss slow
Never hate a foe
Time fades and people too
Just forget the ones that hurt you
Be who you are
Because inside and out you are a shining star
Forget the past and let it go
Time never goes slow
Yesterday is gone so it's the past
All you have is today so make it last