The Candor of A Broken Heart

by Nkossi N.

I sit with myself,
I have conversations with myself,
I berate myself,
I commend myself.

I think of times past,
I ponder upon laughs shared,
I muse about arguments forgiven,
I simper at those forgotten.

I concede my wrongdoings,
I forgive yours.
I wonder how?
I wonder why?

I fail to fathom why,
My conception loathes to accept,
To accept the candor that is.
The candor that it is finished.

Again, I berate myself.
Again I commend myself.
Moreover, I confuse the device of thought.
Worse, that which pumps sanguine,
It beats to the rhythm of a rock lullaby,

O! How I long to smile yet again,
How I long to watch the reflection of self.
Yes, in those pools of brown that pizzazz me time and again

Is it time to run along?
Should I lay in wait?
Must I culminate all feeling?
I know not.
I feel a lot.

Quiet Mind

by Rachel 

Your nose is too round,
Your forehead's too big,
Your stomach is fat,
Ugliness all around.

Starve yourself for a day,
But you still look the same,
Maybe a new scar will take away the pain.

Too ugly for friends,
They'll only reject you,
No one will ever accept you.

You'll never be worthy of the lord's love,
So pretend you don't believe what they say is above.

Why do you try?
Put down the eyeliner and mascara.
No one looks at you anyway.

Love? 
That's not for you.
Don't flatter yourself,
You're not pretty enough.

They don't care about you, 
You're a screw up,
Eventually they'll leave you behind.

Why can't I have a quiet mind?

I'm Sorry

by Leah V.

I’m sorry I’m not perfect
Another perfect image
You have imprinted 
And thriving in
Your mind

I’m sorry for having 
The impatience of
My father, that 
Peace I cannot
Find.

I’m sorry for being 
So determined and
Independent and stubborn, 
Just as you were 
Back then. 

I’m sorry my view 
On things is more
Into reality, yet yours
In your own little 
World

I’m sorry fairy tales
Were left behind for 
Me as a child.

I’m sorry I don’t live
By your religious 
Standards on your 
Perfect life. 

I’m sorry every time 
You yell at me, I cry
For feeling that I 
Am nothing in
Your eyes.

I'm sorry I live to 
Please you so much
And want to deserve
Your all around 
Attention.

I’m sorry I wish, 
Wish my life away
Every time your own 
Flesh and blood
Come and visit 
Our home.

I’m sorry I make 
You think of him
Every time you look
At me.

I’m sorry I’m 
This perfect
Child. 

I’m sorry. 
I’m just so sorry.

The Mistake(n) One

by Leah V.

i am not one
to feel like something.
i am one 
who is told she is nothing.

i do not stand tall
like a redwood tree.
i am shot down
so carelessly.

i am not pretty
like other teens.
i am told i did not
inherit those genes.

i have no sense
as many do.
i have all the book smarts,
that lead me askew. 

i follow the wrong path
and the wrong crowd.
i instead follow no one
and remain in my cloud.

i have a bad mindset
worldly and corrupt.
i must be out of reality
forced and abrupt.

i have no say
as the "child" i am.
i have no opinion
no place to stand.

i hear you say these things
that cannot be erased.
i cannot tune you out
you cannot be chased.

i wasn't a forethought
unknown and unplanned.
i was a "mistake"
thought to be banned?

i am not "happy"
unless i am with you?
i am sorry
but the mistaken one is you.

Goodbye

by Artemis Moon

So sweet is your voice 

as you whisper to me, 

but I guess you don't

know about my

obsession with you,

because it could

cause us confusion,

pain, and regret.

Do you trust my love?

No, of course not. 

You could do better 

than a girl with her 

head in the clouds.

So I guess I can 

love you in secret...

But I can't. 

So I will take my secret 

to the grave.

If I can't have you 

then I can't live.

So goodbye, my beautiful friend.

Never forget me and 

remember when you kiss her.

The Brave Warrior

by Elisheva

At night a knight in shining armor,
Riding on his valiant white stead.

On his way the way to the castle,
To save his beloved princess.

At the gate, the gate to the dungeon,
Waits a fiery dragon for its prey. 

At Gaza a soldier in bullet proof armor,
Riding in his big metal tank.

On his way the way into battle,
To protect his beloved country.

At the gate, the gate to death and blood,
Waits a wild terrorist for his prey

Ghostly Eyes

by Artemis Moon

Ghostly eyes watch us burn.
They use beauty and silence to disguise themselves.
We do not normally see the evil lurking in the crowds,
never see the devil's spies.
But I see them.
I can see their sunken, pale faces
And their mouths open in an eternal scream.
And their eyes.
Their fearless black eyes,
Full of want, and lust.
And violence.
No one believes me,
Which is why I am here in this large white room,
Telling you about the evil that watches us die.
Do you believe me?

Live Again

by Artemis Moon

Those beautiful eyes of his haunt me
in deep shades of blue.
His voice is exotic and seductive
as he tells me how stunning I am.
I'm scared to open my eyes,
for fear of losing sight
of his flirty smile and teasing laugh.
For fear that he isn't real.
He holds me in his arms
and tells me to wake up,
that he is real,
and that he'll be there
when I open my eyes.
So I listen.
I open my eyes and blink
at the blinding white lights
and stare at the doctors around me.
He isn't there.
The dark seductive voice of Death
convinced me to live again.

Unmasked

by Brooke 

Smiling from ear to ear, 
Laughing joyfully, 
Happy, 
That's what's on the outside. 
Devastation, 
Floods of tears, 
Depressed, 
That's what's on the inside. 
Getting caught up in the moment, 
Doesn't happen very often for me, 
But I pretend so no one has to worry. 
I enjoy being alone, 
Reading a book, 
Writing down my thoughts, 
And listening to my music. 
But one can get tired of it, 
Longing for a friend to take my hand, 
Just knowing that someone cares. 
But I just pretend, 
I'm a happy-go-lucky person, 
Who has not a problem in the world. 
Not very many people see through this, 
Not very many people look, 
But when they do, 
I feel vulnerable. 
I try to convince them otherwise, 
Show that I'm happy, 
They pretend I've convinced them, 
Just to make me happy. 
But others keep peeling back the layers, 
Figuring me out, 
Becoming my friend. 
As I pretend, 
Not being who I am, 
Trying to be like everybody else, 
You have found me unmasked.

What Is It Like To Be Evil?

by Rachel

How does it feel to know everyone wants you dead?
To have to check your closet and under your bed?
You brought it on yourself you know,
Ripping children's dreams to shreds,
Acid spraying from your mouth as you speak,
Your selfish words are strong, beating the listener,
But your body and your arguments are weak.
The requested reaper waiting at every turn,
Conjured by your victims who will spit in your urn.
Every tear you force from an eye,
Is another wish that soon you will die.
You pretend to be innocent, like you've done no wrong,
But your lies don't last very long.
You get bloodshot eyes screaming over someone else's spilled milk,
Sticking your snickering nose in into everyone's life.
How can you sleep with these echoing cries?
Plummet off the highest of cliffs,
And give my murdered soul its dying wish.

My Father

by Bianca

The main reason for you is to keep me protected, 
But now I feel mostly rejected 
Nothing that you want 
And the old you was always there to haunt 
My dreams are full of disappointments 
They are shattered and scarred 
With memory of the old you 
Losing you to an unwilling cause 
Putting the nightmare to a pause 
No chance of getting out 
But frozen, I’ll never shout 
I try to fight but just forget it 
Someday I tell myself you’ll regret it 
I am stuck in an unending time loop 
Circular like a hoop 
It's unstoppable 
But to lose my sanity is most likely probable 
The hero is now the villain 
Until a viewer 
Sits to watch his game 
I gave in and now 
I am known for my shame 
Losing every part of me 
All I ask of you is to let me be 
I beg of you I am not perfect 
And once I gave you my heart you 
Hurt it 
I am not like the others 
So please someone another protect me 
The haunters spear me with their words 
They eat my pain for dinner and drink my tears 
No matter how far or how fast I run 
I get lost in my past 
They eat me up slowly once again 
To the point the blow is too hard to mend 
Some days, I feel I will soon awaken 
Others, reality strikes me 
Everything that made me 
Me
Is taken
Love is a word that has no meaning 
You throw it around like the word hi 
Beauty is the vision of perfection 
Without it you are just another rejection 
Having more silicone in your body than you have blood 
Fake and plastic 
Your truth stretches like the worst piece of elastic 
Girls looking in the mirror and thinking that's it 
You people turning their self esteem to shit

Stolen

by Artemis Moon

i'm no match for her beauty;
it's a beauty too fast.
i'll never catch up 
i will always be last.
but still i know you,
and i know that you're smart,
and you're also a thief,
because you stole my heart.
and she may love you, 
but not as much as i,
and i know you'll never come back, 
which is why i sit here and cry.
i cry for the days,
that are long gone and past.
and i cry for the days,
where i was never last.

Gone

by Artemis Moon

i sit by the window
mourning your leave
the air becomes thick
it becomes hard to breathe
when i am awake
your voice haunts me
but when i sleep 
i think you're with me
and i hope one day
you will see your mistake
so you will run to my arms
and a new love we will make

Mirror

by Karley

she looks in the mirror and what does she see 

a fat ugly girl that she has to be 

why can't she be like those pretty girls she sees everywhere

she starves herself but nobody seems to care 

she has scars on her thighs 

and her whole life was filled with endless lies 

all she wants now is to commit suicide

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 

I Would've

by Alexandria 

Everyday I wither away

I remember every word you'd say

It was all a lie, one I believed

I'd swear to you each and every day

What does it mean?

What am i to you?

Confused and Broken

Too scared to look like a fool

I'm nothing now,

Ive not listened like I should've

If only I knew what I knew now

I could've left...I would've.

Am I enough now?

Am I all what you want?

New questions creep into my mind,

lurking and they haunt.

Only to sit there. Unanswered.

Will they ever be?

Choice

by Sophia

For him I made a selfless choice
I clouded my heart-desired voice
I threw away a happy life
And chose one that is filled with strife

The queen of darkness I’d be to him
One song of pain, an endless hymn
Instead he’ll take queen of light
With those deep eyes, how can I fight?

To her I swore my sacred oath
Something I may have come to loathe
And though his love I’ll always crave
I take my promise to the grave

For how, with her, could I compete?
Trying itself, would be a feat
With such brown eyes and slender figure
All of me it will disfigure

And so in hopelessness I lay
My choice, on my shoulders it will weigh
With a life that’s worth less than coal
And love still weighing on my soul

Pain

by Sophia

I always dreamt I'd take your hand

And write your name down in the sand

Yet when I wake up in the morning

You aren't there, my heart is yearning

I thought I could forget you

And leave you there without a clue

But when I try, it'll never do

Because I see your eyes so blue

You never thought what I would feel

That on my knees you made me kneel

And so my heart has turned to coal

I, to the devil, sold my soul

And now to me you have come back

Away at my sanity you hack

You now ask me to forgive you

Something I am so willing to do

I give up, I have no power

My strength is gone, my life is sour

All my strings of life are severed

If feel like I've been dead forever

A Thin Line

by Sophia

Me.
Walking on a thin line between
Reality
Actuality,
Fiction
And 
Fantasy
 
On one side 
Humanity 
Normal
And 
Average
 
On the other
Weirdness
Madness
Failure
In other words, two different worlds
 
One full of anger.
The other full of sweet ignorance

A Dream

by Melissa

i saw a little girl, head hanging low, i asked for her name

she said i'm no one; that's when the tears came

she asked who I was, if someone sent a spy and if so, who?

i told her, "oh i'm just a girl, just an ordinary girl like you"

i couldn't see her face, but in her voice

you could hear how this little girl ached

she must have been around seven or eight

her weeps hit my core and kind of made me stutter

i asked, "little girl it's late, where is your mother?"

she he wasn't here, but then where could she be

but i guess those facts never minded to me

i took her fragile hand, skin so fare and white

asked her what was wrong, if everything was alright?

at first she hesitated, but then began to explain

why she was crying, why she was in pain

she told that her daddy left without a sign

i reassured her it was okay for so had mine

a voice full of sorrow, she screamed, NO! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

and with so much hurt, clenched my hand

she said i'm not beautiful, i'm so pale and my hair is too dark

then she turned her wrist and showed me her marks

she went on with her story, deep breaths in between

she told me that she saw things a little girl should have never seen

she told me what they would say and all the things they would do

children are supposed to be angels, but sometimes they can be so cruel

a child so young in agony, so misunderstood

all her life it's been if i could, i would

the room suddenly was dark, only light on her...

time paused for a moment, neither of us said a word

and when i stepped back, oh you wouldn't believe

i was looking into the eyes of a little girl that once was me....

Broken Home

by Lapria 

What do you do when you feel alone? 

Captured within the pale walls of a broken home 

What do you do when you feel alone? 

Shattered dreams and all hope is gone 

Inhaling the fumes of agony and pain 

Hoping strength you'll soon regain 

Broken glass you swallow every time you tell her a lie 

Looking at her deep in her brown eyes 

Wanting to tell her the truth 

But knowing it would be just too much 

Wanting to feel that tingly touch 

That installation of kin that you once cherished 

Now gone forever due to a poor marriage 

What do you do when you feel alone? 

Captured within the pale walls of a broken home 

You break free and listen to the whispers of the wind

If only I knew now what I knew then 

What's done in the dark always reveals itself in the light 

What was done was done and even if it wasn't right 

I will escape the feeling of loneliness and the tenderness of pain 

And the love that I share with her in my heart will remain. 

So what do you do when you feel alone? 

Break down the pale walls within the broken home 

Rebuild them and paint them with a clean white 

It’s guaranteed to make everything alright... 

What do you do when you feel alone? 

Rebuild the strength and love within the home!

Mirror

by Alison

the mirror shows her every flaw, 

hips too big and chest too small,

she sees no worth and cries in shame,

she hates herself and he’s to blame,

mascara tears have stained her eyes,

"you're beautiful"

has become a lie,

pretty girls in magazines

and perfect ones on movie screens,

they have it all,

the looks and more

while she just cries

behind locked doors

to love herself is what she needs

but not enough is all she sees,

no matter what the mirror shows,

she's more beautiful than she could know.

Sirens Blue

by Anonymous

I see blood flash in sirens blue.

Blood, dripping rapidly,
Cascading from the carcass
Of a teenage mind,
Over analysed.

A trace of silver,
One solemn tear,
Smoothly sails on the surface
Of a flame.

Like my hope,
Life flashes red
Battered and bandaged,
And like my hope,

Evaporates.

One Night

by Danielle

One night I woke up because somebody broke me.
I cried and cried but I couldn't tell you why.
I walked around and into the bathroom.
When I looked in the mirror I saw my daddy's face.
In my head I heard him say...
"Babygirl, waste your tears on something worth it.
You're too beautiful to be tear-stained."
At that moment I smiled and I saw my face..
The face of a broken girl, but one 
that would be okay in the end.

Really

by Anonymous

I try but not really
I'm high but no really
Pure attraction, nothing more than magnetism
I don't love you at all
I don't even have a heart of reason
Sorry if you thought different
I can never be the prince of a princess
Maybe in time
But I know I'll still play this game
And these scars will make you cry in pain

I fuck up but not really
No girl ever wants to be open but no really
A tough exterior to break?
I'm as soft as can be
I wish I could melt your heart
But you sneak around like a centipede
So you’ve forced me to fend for myself
Sorry if you get in the way
I don't know your last name anyway

You're cool but not really
You're hot but no really
Here I go again
Settle down just to make my move
I skateboard and chill, act smooth
I'll get what I want, but come off as rude
Taint her white dress she thinks she’s in love
Tingles the skin to the core
Make excuses, I'm and, if, but, and or

I’m happy but not really
Back to square one but no really
Well what now
I think I’ll take a bow 
Oh you want to see a movie tonight
Check that I'll take an encore
Please don’t be a bore
Victim to my own rhyme 
Only to possibly learn in due time

My Wings

by Melecia

I lost my wings when you went away
I scream for your contact everyday
I break down into sobs whenever you cross my mind
I will not be okay, I will not be fine

Don't you know what you left behind? 
A broken home, and no peace of mind.
I know you were hurting, but weren't we all? 
You brought us all down, when you decided to fall.

I don't mean to sound selfish, but I loved you, you know
I just wished you would have warned us that you were ready to go

You were my wings, you helped me to fly
but now I'm stuck on the ground with my life passing by
I miss you so much it hurts
and I hope you know I loved you with all I was worth

We'll meet again soon and sit on a cloud
and you'll tell me how I screamed so loud
You heard every cry, and tasted every tear
Everything I felt down there, you felt up here

"I'm so sorry," you apologize
"It's okay," I say through blinking eyes
I have my wings again, I'm free to fly
Then you take my hand, and we take to the skies.

Silence

by Imanni 

lungs have no air
heart has no beat
nose has no smell
eyes cant see
hands cant touch or feel warmth
legs cant walk
lips wont move
veins empty of blood

shatter glass
broken up words
broken lamps
broken girl
broken world

violence fills the air 
he hits and hits and hits again
saying shes a bitch
a whore
he's such an artist
who paints all of his work in blood

she's dead on the inside
choking on her own pain and guilt
friends cry, she's insane
will she ever be the same

heart starts to beat slowly
lungs start to fill with air
mind starts to send signals
hands can feel
nose can smell
legs can walk
veins start to pump
and lips start to move
she says

fear is not here or there
insane aren't we all
crazy
delusional
mentally changed to some degree
but why does it only have to be me
because i told or because i'm alive
even tho the tear aint dried
still i rise

Haunted

by Imanni

What if I could stop breathing for 20 seconds?
Maybe that could get you to not be reckless?
What if I bleed out and die?
Would that even be enough for you to cry?
What if I told you how I really felt without holding back?
I wonder how you would respond to that.
Would you rant and rave
Threaten to put me in the grave?
Or would you listen
Not interrupt till I was finish?
I wonder how you will react when the Judge hands down the Verdict.
Are you even scared to be in there with convicted criminal?
Or are you trying to have everything subliminal
Do you try to kill me in you sleep
Conjure up images just to prove to you I’m weak.
Will you count down the month, hours, days, and year?
Or will you face you fear
Or maybe drown in your own tear
I hope it haunt you like a ghost
And bother you most nights
Hopefully you can’t sleep without lights
Darkness will consume you 
And there I will be
Facing you with all of you misery
You will never sleep again
Neither will your friends
Haunting and taunting you'll see visions of me
Watching from the inside
You’ll go downhill
Bouncing from mental institution
For you there is no solution
I follow you like prey ready to attack
Just like your decisions you can never turn back
Guess what it are not only you
Your other 2 friends are seeing me too
I will never go away
I will haunt you everyday
Impossible to get rid of me
I’ll have you pleading please
I won’t listen it will fall upon deaf ears
Just like screaming in nightmares
Grab for your blanket or teddy
You can’t call mom you know that already
This is Prison and I’m Hell
Rest in pieces in your Jail cell
Beware the dude your sleeping next like boys
You’ll be his next jailhouse toy.
3 years from now I’ll be at your Wake
You won’t rest in Peace
I’ll command your fate
You’ll hear my voice
And smell me before you die
And you will know the answer why
I am the ghost and you are scrooge
Life is a game! Guess what
You lose

Trapped Behind These Cold Glass Walls

by Imanni

trapped behind these cold glass walls

white fades to black

emotions run deep like a cut with a four inch blade

cold glassy stare from sharp crazed eyes

look into the mirror what do you see

a crazed person staring back at me

words spin as tho they're on an amusement ride

but this is not for fun

lives are at stake

don't take the risk

black slowly turns to red

deep bright hard red

pumping out of the cold and disturbed heart

what do you say

how do you react

the cold glassy stare freezes in time

prickly thorns arise on that heart 

thought to be made out of steel

they let down the castle wall guarding your heart

but the pain they can't see

the fire taken over your soul

walking slow like a zombie

screams that they can't hear

your cries for help echo against these glass walls

someone throw a brick or a stone

let me out of this vicious cage

that we've both built

me out of protection

you out of control

someone help me

sweaty hands surround tightly around the throat

squeezing the life out of you slowly

like an anaconda on the verge of an attack

i guess this is the sign that i'm going mad

the unseen bruises

vision of him appearing like a ghost

i'm going crazier than most

Touch

by Emily

A lingering smile,

On lips of softest pink,

A flash of joy,

In bright eyes full of wonder,

A brush of golden curls,

Of the halo that surrounds her,

Gentleness, Truthfulness,

A soul that shines so bright,

I stand on the outskirts,

Hoping to be noticed,

But content to always wonder,

If that smile was meant for me.

Satan's Army

by Kaitlyn

All the people

I love and know

Were destroyed

With one little blow

As the power of Satan

Doubled in size

His skeleton army

Started to rise

If there is one thing

You should know

If you want to survive

Just remember

Never close your eyes.

Softness

by Emily

The cruel pangs of reality stab at my side,

A constant reminder of a fight left to fight,

The haunting concept of a pain left to live.

A softer idea brushes the edges of my mind,

A more promising reality of endings and beginnings,

 Of softness, and tiredness, and wanderings.

To let go of the world,

Surrendering, giving,

to the serenity beyond.

Oh! To let go, of my worries and problems,

Of my secrets and pains,

Never to be told,

 to the eyes that don't see,

 to the lives that don't live.

 To be free of the pressures,

of the swirling indifference,

 that consumes the world around me.

Surrendering to softness,

To a world with less to hold.