I Am In Love

by Prathamesh

Never had I surmised,
I would fall in love;
It happened so suddenly,
Hardly could I know.
Her eyes were scintillating,
Her hair so sleek;
Time stood still at the moment
I was watching her like a geek.
She spoke with a serenity,
That'd calm the angers of all;
Her voice was so sweet,
Like angels giving you a call.
Her manner was so gentle,
Her walk so fine;
No one would call her human,
She had a touch of The Divine.
Her eyes exploring the Earth,
Glimpsed me anyhow for a moment;
They blinked and glared me back,
I wondered if it be an accident.
From childhood up to now,
I always dreamed of a princess.
Now in reality she was, there
And to my surprise our eyes met.
The meadow around with green lustre,
Bade 'hello' to the masterly beauty.
But her eyes, gently piercing my soul,
I never experienced such a sanity.
The golden sun smiling in the blue sky,
With its rays gleaming over her hair;
Array of perfection she already wore,
Making it a complexion so beautiful, so rare.
Nature-born or God-gifted;
This girl made me fall for her;
I wondered if she be a fairy,
'Had she white wings with white fur?'
At the whole of her sight,
You'd have said she was a dove;
But my heart couldn't stop singing,
"I AM IN LOVE"

For Bayleigh

by Bobby R.

I used to love to look at you,
I used love your laugh,
I miss the way I'd come unglued,
I loved the way we meshed

I loved the honesty we shared,
and living without fear,
I loved the thought of
having you forever, always here

But today I cannot look at you,
not the same now, anyway,
what happened to the way we were,
why did it have to change?

Without you I feel broken,
Like I never will move on,
I was in love with you,
I am now, and may forever be,
please just help me now,
please just help me see.

Change

by Alex

You always see me smiling,
But on the inside I’m really crying.
Nobody knows me,
Nobody understands me.
I’ve never had anybody to talk to.
My dad was never here,
My mom was always working,
None of my friends wanted to talk about feelings,
Then I turned to drugs,
I felt like they were the only things
that would understand me.
They took over my life.
Every day, all day, before school,
even during school, and after school.
I said goodbye to my family and old friends.
I had no more feelings,
I just didn’t care anymore.
Everything seemed so great,
only because I was hiding my feelings behind the drugs.
They controlled everything, my feelings, thoughts, and body.
It was the scariest thing ever, I just didn’t know what to do.
Then I moved away from my family and so called friends.
I finally sobered up.
It was the best feeling ever.
I turned to the best person ever, Jesus.
I stopped living life for myself & started living for him.
Ever since I’ve made that choice I’ve risen to the top.
I can face my feelings and I’m a stronger person,
I’m not afraid anymore.
My family finally loves me and is here for me again.
I love this feeling,
I love the new me.

Say Something

by Naomi M.

I wish
I was there when you needed me
I wish
You were there when I needed you
Now I wish you'd be the one to speak up
But I was the one that cut you out.
And pretended that we were nothing.
But people make mistakes.
And I wish you would say something.

Numb

by Mone

I cannot feel, I want to but I just can't.

Because if I do then all I feel is pain.

I don't wanna feel pain because then I remember.

When I feel pain I have to hold myself together,

So that I don't fall apart.
My heart aches when I feel, so I don't,

I just stop then the pain goes away,

to return another day. Unless just maybe I should let it out;
No I can't, I can't feel that anymore, I can't, I won't.

So I stand still, I don't move, and after a time I go numb again.
It's not easy and I don't like it,

but if being numb means not being in pain, I'll take it.

 

Flaws

by Aminah

Read this, then,
tell me what have you learnt?
i am not a perfect girl,
i was once broken but yet i am not unbroken.
i stay away from crowds.
i have no shadows.
i have left all judgment out of my head.
i don’t know what mind tells me anymore; i listen to what my heart says.
every day, i live my life and the days i have lived pass in minutes.
they all thought they knew me, so i just laughed in my head.
the ones who knew me, knew more about me than i did.
i used to over-think, let it boil until it turned into liquid.
i have made mistakes, i am not perfect.
i try to correct them over and over; it's like they want be perfected.

Ready

by Mudasirbaba

Where is da boundary?
Another century, a rising hope
Where is da bank,
Another century, sweat on my breast
Where is da relief?
My hands are in line
My legs are constant
My head's not heady
My eyes not beady

Bring on da new year
I take it on with no alarm

Quote

by Mudasirbaba

and the darkness engulfs us
and body heat keeps us warm
and each breath is vandalising
the silence around.

He

by Aminah

That feeling I often get when you’re next to me.
That feeling that just won’t go away.
That feeling where,
He brings me roses on Valentine’s.
He whispers the words I love you in my ears.
He calls me every day just to see if I am okay.
He makes me feel more in love with him
Every time I look into his beautiful blue eyes.
He makes me feel less insecure.
He takes my pain and misery away.
Now everything is just plain dull,
He left me without saying goodbye.
Wondering, but knowing he’s never coming back.
Now it’s just me buying red roses on Valentine’s Day
The redness of the flowers reminds me
Of the warmth of my blood constricting in my skin.
He made me fall in love with his everything
And now I am not sure about a second chance at love
But I know for sure that although I have fallen
I would rise again.
He’s probably up there watching me
Over the clouds and stars.

Desolation

by Prathamesh

As I cuddle up on cold nights,
restless; I memorise those kisses and fights.
Life was awesome; with you by my side,
Presently, it is full of lonely rides.
I often walk; aimlessly.
Completely dumbfounded at what I do,
My life has lost its purpose,
It's hard to believe yet true.
Sorrow-stricken me,
With eyes teary wet,
Blaming my mistakes and myself,
For I wrote my own fate.
'No one's perfect',
You used to say.
But I can hardly believe,
It ended this way.
In the pool of solitude,
I often swim,
In search of love,
In search of that 'hope-beam'.
This pool of emptiness,
It's killing me inside,
Drowning in this deadly pool,
With no one to guide.
Return to me
And take me in your lap.
I pray you my love,
I want to be awakened from this nap.
Take me away;
Away from this world of strife,
I really NEED you,
To complete my life.

Why Always Me?

by Prathamesh

Why always me,
Gets the heart broken?
Why always my true feelings,
Remain unspoken?
You showed me,
Such a lot fantasies,
I dreamed it way too much;
Playing together in the daisies..
I got attached to you so fast,
And hoped the setbacks would settle;
My world for you was so vast,
And you made it so little.
Why me, to your love fell a pray,
Why, dreaming of you, I'd idly lay.
Why you crushed all my feelings in a second,
Why I considered you, an Angel from Heaven..
Why you stared at me,
Though I wanted much more
Why you threw me out of your heart,
And I kept you in the core..
Why now, why you ignore me?
Why, at first, you became my destiny..
Why, why you proved love a lie,
Why, why you bade that last goodbye..
If you still care,
Answer all my 'why's,
Please come back to me,
Fear no word from me; No fies...!

Tick Tock Tick Tock

by Jenny

Can your hear their screams.
Put your hands on ears,
Wish this was just a dream.
That all your fears,
Are false, Tomorrow will be a new day.

Can you hear their footsteps.
Coming up the stairs,
You have had learned to accept,
That this is the way it is.

Can you hear them banging on your door,
It's making you nervous.
Your knees shook along with the floor.

Silence is deafening,
Your spirit is defeating.
The only thing that can be heard is the clock,
Sitting on your desk.
Tick Tock Tick Tock it goes.

It's like as if it's taunting you,
Haunting you, Daring you.
The clock is ticking,
Time is running out.

Nightmares

by Tia

Pinned down.
Heavy breathing.
Cold steel.
Silence screaming.
Burning sensation.
Blood dripping.
Deep cuts.
Pain gripping.
Ripped clothes.
Quiet struggle.
Tears streaming.
Thunder rumbles.
Bruised skin.
Shattered mind.
Running away.
But falling behind.
Progress made.
Day by day.
Feeling better.
Thanks to my blades.
Haunting nightmares.
Tear soaked pillows.
Struggling for reality.
That's how my life goes.

Bent Over with Love

by Gabby J.

The Power of Love is like no other.
I am bent over with love
For the Good and the Bad
The Suffocation of Love? Yeah.
The Pain of Love!
I ask
Why won't she let go?
Why won't he give up?
Why is she being so difficult?
Why is he so persistent?
Why won't she let me be?
Why are you still in my life?
Why are these tears trickling down my cheeks?
Because of LOVE.
I am far from UNGRATEFUL
I am simply bent over with love.
All I Ask
is to slightly
unbend the bent
and SET

Revive

by Ayushi M.

Those tears down the cheek, 
The redness in the eye,
You seem to be crying,
Can I ask you why? 

That smile on your face
Exists no more,
Your legs are feeble,
Like never before
                                  
It seems like eternity
When you happened to be happy
That joy has disappeared,
Oh what a pity!
                                   
You made my life worth living     
Blessed me in disguise 
I want you to be happy
that's all my heart cries         

You are extremely sad
I don't even know why
But if you need to pour it out
It's me you can try   

Please be my angel
And let me fix the broken wings
I know you will fly again
And let alone the joy sing.

Waiting for Relief

by Naomi M.

I go to bed each night thinking,
will tomorrow be just another day like them  all?
Will I take control over my life
and acknowledge my feelings,
or continue to treat them like they are small?

There's nothing more painful than the guilt I feel
because I know you love me and I cannot be my best.
And I cannot express the love I have for you
in my heart thumping in my chest.
I have so much inside of me
just waiting to come out,
But where there was once strength
There now is vacant pain
and all I manage to do is shout.

The roots of  our love is so strong
but our branches are all broken
and my weeping heart is waiting
for something capsizing to be spoken,
So that my cries let out will be acknowledged
and the wasted pain will go away
and all that will be left of this
will be memories of a day.

The Time Is Near

by Ketsueki M.

The time is near.
Slowly. Oh so slowly, does my sweet oblivion come near.
I can feel it, begging for freedom.
Suddenly, I am surrounded.
But I am not afraid, for we are family.
We are a pack.
Finally, the time is near, to rid ourselves of our troubles,
our worries, our fears.
Giddy with anticipation, we change.
From Human to wolf.
From pain to bliss.
The only witness to this change is our mother, the Moon.
For our gift works best under the watchful eye of our mother.
Before we run, we thank our mother in the tongue of the wolf.

Infant

by Ayushi

Mom, why is water flowing from your eyes?
Dad, why dont you smile?
Why is everyone sad?
Is there something wrong?
God said, I was supposed to bring happiness to your lives,
Then why is no one happy?
Am I not good?
Mom, have I made a mistake?
Have I hurt anyone?

I remember, 
you were laughing, 
Singing songs, 
And were extremely happy
Infact, everyone was happy.
I could even feel your laughter,
When I was a part of you.
Even I thought to myself,
That I would come to your life,
And would make you even more happpier,
But that is not happening...!
I can see that everyone is sad,
I can sense something wrong.

Oh! I forgot to tell you mom,
When I was inside you,
Something was troubling me.
I wasn't at ease,
I felt something pressing against my throat 
It felt like, something was trying to kill me...
And then I choked,
and again...
and again...

A few moments passed,
And I was feeling better,
But there was a problem...
I was not able to breathe properly
Things were not making sense, mom
I don't know what was happening.

Then there was screaming and shouting and god knows what all.
And then came the moment, when I entered this world...
I was covered in a red, gooey substance,

My eyes were not opening,
And I couldn't move,
Not even a bit!
I wasn't even breathing...

God told me once,
"All you have to do throughout your life,.. is breathe
Because that is what proves that you are alive!"

Things are making sense now, mom
I don't move
I don't cry
I don't even breathe...!
Mom, am I not alive?
Am I "born dead", like most people call it?
I think I am...

I am sorry, mom
But I would have to leave...
I don't get a chance to be with you, and dad and this family.
God wants me back..

I guess, this is the reason why everyone is crying
I did not stay with you all,
For even a few moments,
But you all, still love me,
Are crying over my death..
All of you would miss me, right?

I promise you, mom
I would go back to god 
and ask him to give you a friend of mine.
You keep him, ok?
And be happy.

I may not be alive, mom
But I know god will give you happiness again.
I know my friend will make you happy

Please mom, please don't cry
And ask dad to be happy
You know I love you the most, right?
And I will always do ...
Just take care of yourself
And everyone else

It's time for me to go.
Bye mom,
Bye dad,
Bye world.

Guilty Pleasure

by Tay

My sinful lips already committed forbidden pleasure,
pleasure that can never be revealed
Wishin’ to rewind through time of prevention,
while bein' deleted from my present... 

As their bodies became whole,
Electrifyin' lights sparked within' each vessel 
Formin' unique passion marks,
as our lips danced along each others skin
Like tango music,
Our sounds romantically spiced the room
With an agreeable minglin' of seduction...

The sweetest fingers roamed, 
Caressed,  
quenched my thirstin' physical needs
While spiritual sins are being created with a knowledgeable lover
Showin love and affection...
Feelin' lower than loam, 
guilt drastically took its place as the aftermath
This romance jus' recently starting….

Why couldn’t I’ve said?
…Wait! Put those flames on ice!
This isn't what you will want, 
Jus' hormones caught in the moment...

Lookin' back,
Wantin' to reverse the hour glass
This event could've been delayed until its rightful time,
With that rightful someone
But my sinful lips already committed forbidden pleasure...

The End

by Ayushi

You see me,
I see you.
My heart pounds,
Just the way it used to.

You hold her hand,
Kiss her on the cheek.
The mere sight of it,
Makes my knees weak.

I want to cry,
Put my heart out.
Why did you leave me?
That's all my heart shouts.

You love her,
I loved you.
Well, that's what I state,
I know I still do.

It seems like yesterday,
When I gave you my heart,
You were to take care of it,
not to tear it apart.

I want to talk to you,
I wanna know why,
Exclaiming it to be eternal,
Was it just a lie?

She holds your hand,
Kisses you on the lips,
That's when reality strikes me,
And my heart takes a deep dip.

It's over between us,
I know it is.
You were a part of me,
Who will be highly missed.

Revelation

by Earl G.

I've never been so happy,
I still can't believe it is true,
Though this may sound sappy,
My brain feels just like goo,
My heart is beating,
And my knees buckle, too.
To know you feel this way
Is joy anytime of the day.

Fragmented

by Anonymous

These emotions i kept bottled up.
It makes me cry on the inside.
I put up a smile.
When in reality it's me tearing apart.
The pain seemed to increase every second.
It makes my knees shake.
I just want to curl in a ball and disappear.
Because my tears they seemed to be invisible to you.

It's painful really.
It makes me feel fragmented.
Broken and alone.
Can't you tell by the way i shivered.
This pain is only tearing me apart.

When i call out to you.
My voice seemed to be lost in the wind.
The words i wanted to shout.
It came out as whispers and whimpers.

Fragmented, broken and alone.

Land of Lust

by CJ P.

With hinges rusted it swings open
The gate screeched and howled from decades of neglect 
Revealing within it the fields and forests
The forests reeked with the decaying of wood, of life
The fields adorn with a strange charm
Beckoning you to them.
With a crooked finger of uneasy certainty. 

Amidst the bones, 
your eye catches what you came for
The tall dead grass, brittle to the touch, 
Moves to to the side to let you pass
At last you have reached the mound of cracked earth
That housed your treasure.

Carefully ever so carefully your hand descended
At last you lose what little patience you had left, 
eager to stake your claim
Wearing the wicked grin like a mask that is now part of you
The same grin that the gates opened for
With hands clenched tightly in a fist
Around the golden stem pulsating with life, you pulled.
You pulled on that lonely idol but it would not budge 
No amount of cursing or brute force 
Could remove this lone beauty 
From the desolate field of decay.
The petals could not be  disheveled,
roots uprooted, stem disturbed, life destroyed

But you would not give up
Your subconscious code overwritten by savagery.
An innocent child turned monster.
By the time you realised your mistake it was too late
The same noise that greeted your arrival 
has also sealed your fate
It was the squealing of a pig at slaughter 
It was the gate

The gate from which you came, 
heading back to the life you left behind
The gate closes, never to be reopened
You now know what is to come of your mislead life
You raise your hand to the grey sky 
One last time in a silent salute
With the dry dead air 
stealing the life from inside you, you collapsed
You have at last arrived in your rightful place
Among the bones

Sadness

by Broken Hearted

I'm crying on the inside,
Where no one can hear me.
Hoping for that brighter day to come.
Trying not to show any of my emotions.
Trying day by day to keep the smile
That will not last long upon my face,
To keep me from crying.
People hurting me from left to right.
But I can only trust one person.
Who actually cares and understands my pain.

Who Knows

by Jessi M.

And for the life of me
I don’t know what’s worse,
not having you
or knowing I never will.
Somehow I’ve got to get you
out of my head,
out of my heart.
when you left,
you took a chunk of me with you.
I stop to think for a bit
How did it come to this?
How could I let it get this far?
And now I’m left with faded memories
telling a story my lips will never speak.

Masquerade with Death

by Jenny

Here's to the night,
That we'll be dancing in the lights.
Our destiny is written in the stars.

Here's to the nights. 
I will be dancing with death.
Here's to the night,
I will meet the man who wore a mask.

Life Is Short

by Tammy I.

She sees life differently than you 
She knows how short it can be
You haven't seen what she's gone through
Sometimes she wishes you could see

You take one look at her
Never know her story
At the moment everything is a blur
She can't find herself.

All she really knows
Life is short
If only time would have froze
She he'd have some support.

No one knows her well
Very few understand her
Sometimes feeling like she's in a dark cell
She might as well go through hell

She sees life differently 
She understands it's short
Her intent is to treat it gently 
So she lives like there's no tomorrow.

Wings of War

by Sophie A.

The demons pierce my mind, 
And take me to their nightmare 
On wings of war they fly 
They came for me to die 

The angels have fought hard 
To save me from this hell
But who will win this battle? 
I can never tell

If I should die while fighting  
Know this for your sake 
My death was not your fault 
It was never your mistake.

Oh, Sleep

by Anonymous

Oh, lovely quiet Night.
Oh, lovely loud Night.
How you and I fight.

I cannot be without thee, see,
without you I have no sanctuary.
No where to hide, a place to no longer hide.
I trust you and no one else.

If I am up to say goodbye to you one more time, I may break.

Oh, Insomnia.
Oh, lovely Insomnia.
Oh, cursed Insomnia.
Has one complimented you before?

Congratulations. You’ve got me,
my body, my heart, my soul, my mind.
I’m losing my mind to you.

Oh, Sleep, oh, Sleep.
Why am I without Sleep so often?
I swear I love Sleep with all my heart.

And yet I cannot leave Insomnia,
I cannot leave Night for a second more than I do,
and I am separated from my love.

Oh, Love. Do I have you?
I once believed Love was what was closest to you.
Family, friends, God.

But if that was true,
then why the hell am I never asleep?

My Mask

by Jenny

Going through the crowd,
Trying to stand tall and proud.
I moved through a decade.
No one suspects my facade.

Feelings trapped in,
Scarring my skin.
Ripping my heart out wide.
Broken and wishing for someone to be by my side.

This charade i acted upon.
This is my Mask i put on.

Bringing the Rain

by Leah V.

I wait for the day
to quickly come 'round
I wait for the day
to hear the sound.

The sound of affection
Coming from your voice
It is never required
It is done by choice.

I was never enough
to make you proud.
At least, you never told me aloud.

Always disappointed
Always ashamed
It was never you;
My father, you blamed.

Of course, lest I forget,
it was my fault as well.
I could not stay
in your little shell.

I broke out the casing,
broke out of the mold,
my temperature changed,
yet you stayed cold.

When I left, I was free.
Free from the hurt,
free from the pain,
of being treated as dirt.

So many issues,
so many times
We cried and I was forced
to scribe in my rhymes.

All were tense,
all were stressed,
nothing in life
seemed to be blessed.

I left and I see
I see the change,
I see how you act,
and I think it strange.

So many friends
you never had before
So many shells 
washed on the shore.

Closer together
you all became
It is now the sun;
I was the rain.

You never think to call,
not a simple "Hello"
I see, in your rank,
I am well past below.

I keep that in mind,
when I start to miss,
when I start to remember, 
I remember this.

I am sorry for the trouble,
I am sorry for the pain,
I meant no downer
Or to bring the rain.

While your days are sunny,
mine are clear.
I think of this when 
to you I'd like to be near.