Infant

by Ayushi

Mom, why is water flowing from your eyes?
Dad, why dont you smile?
Why is everyone sad?
Is there something wrong?
God said, I was supposed to bring happiness to your lives,
Then why is no one happy?
Am I not good?
Mom, have I made a mistake?
Have I hurt anyone?

I remember, 
you were laughing, 
Singing songs, 
And were extremely happy
Infact, everyone was happy.
I could even feel your laughter,
When I was a part of you.
Even I thought to myself,
That I would come to your life,
And would make you even more happpier,
But that is not happening...!
I can see that everyone is sad,
I can sense something wrong.

Oh! I forgot to tell you mom,
When I was inside you,
Something was troubling me.
I wasn't at ease,
I felt something pressing against my throat 
It felt like, something was trying to kill me...
And then I choked,
and again...
and again...

A few moments passed,
And I was feeling better,
But there was a problem...
I was not able to breathe properly
Things were not making sense, mom
I don't know what was happening.

Then there was screaming and shouting and god knows what all.
And then came the moment, when I entered this world...
I was covered in a red, gooey substance,

My eyes were not opening,
And I couldn't move,
Not even a bit!
I wasn't even breathing...

God told me once,
"All you have to do throughout your life,.. is breathe
Because that is what proves that you are alive!"

Things are making sense now, mom
I don't move
I don't cry
I don't even breathe...!
Mom, am I not alive?
Am I "born dead", like most people call it?
I think I am...

I am sorry, mom
But I would have to leave...
I don't get a chance to be with you, and dad and this family.
God wants me back..

I guess, this is the reason why everyone is crying
I did not stay with you all,
For even a few moments,
But you all, still love me,
Are crying over my death..
All of you would miss me, right?

I promise you, mom
I would go back to god 
and ask him to give you a friend of mine.
You keep him, ok?
And be happy.

I may not be alive, mom
But I know god will give you happiness again.
I know my friend will make you happy

Please mom, please don't cry
And ask dad to be happy
You know I love you the most, right?
And I will always do ...
Just take care of yourself
And everyone else

It's time for me to go.
Bye mom,
Bye dad,
Bye world.

Guilty Pleasure

by Tay

My sinful lips already committed forbidden pleasure,
pleasure that can never be revealed
Wishin’ to rewind through time of prevention,
while bein' deleted from my present... 

As their bodies became whole,
Electrifyin' lights sparked within' each vessel 
Formin' unique passion marks,
as our lips danced along each others skin
Like tango music,
Our sounds romantically spiced the room
With an agreeable minglin' of seduction...

The sweetest fingers roamed, 
Caressed,  
quenched my thirstin' physical needs
While spiritual sins are being created with a knowledgeable lover
Showin love and affection...
Feelin' lower than loam, 
guilt drastically took its place as the aftermath
This romance jus' recently starting….

Why couldn’t I’ve said?
…Wait! Put those flames on ice!
This isn't what you will want, 
Jus' hormones caught in the moment...

Lookin' back,
Wantin' to reverse the hour glass
This event could've been delayed until its rightful time,
With that rightful someone
But my sinful lips already committed forbidden pleasure...

The End

by Ayushi

You see me,
I see you.
My heart pounds,
Just the way it used to.

You hold her hand,
Kiss her on the cheek.
The mere sight of it,
Makes my knees weak.

I want to cry,
Put my heart out.
Why did you leave me?
That's all my heart shouts.

You love her,
I loved you.
Well, that's what I state,
I know I still do.

It seems like yesterday,
When I gave you my heart,
You were to take care of it,
not to tear it apart.

I want to talk to you,
I wanna know why,
Exclaiming it to be eternal,
Was it just a lie?

She holds your hand,
Kisses you on the lips,
That's when reality strikes me,
And my heart takes a deep dip.

It's over between us,
I know it is.
You were a part of me,
Who will be highly missed.

Revelation

by Earl G.

I've never been so happy,
I still can't believe it is true,
Though this may sound sappy,
My brain feels just like goo,
My heart is beating,
And my knees buckle, too.
To know you feel this way
Is joy anytime of the day.

Fragmented

by Anonymous

These emotions i kept bottled up.
It makes me cry on the inside.
I put up a smile.
When in reality it's me tearing apart.
The pain seemed to increase every second.
It makes my knees shake.
I just want to curl in a ball and disappear.
Because my tears they seemed to be invisible to you.

It's painful really.
It makes me feel fragmented.
Broken and alone.
Can't you tell by the way i shivered.
This pain is only tearing me apart.

When i call out to you.
My voice seemed to be lost in the wind.
The words i wanted to shout.
It came out as whispers and whimpers.

Fragmented, broken and alone.

Land of Lust

by CJ P.

With hinges rusted it swings open
The gate screeched and howled from decades of neglect 
Revealing within it the fields and forests
The forests reeked with the decaying of wood, of life
The fields adorn with a strange charm
Beckoning you to them.
With a crooked finger of uneasy certainty. 

Amidst the bones, 
your eye catches what you came for
The tall dead grass, brittle to the touch, 
Moves to to the side to let you pass
At last you have reached the mound of cracked earth
That housed your treasure.

Carefully ever so carefully your hand descended
At last you lose what little patience you had left, 
eager to stake your claim
Wearing the wicked grin like a mask that is now part of you
The same grin that the gates opened for
With hands clenched tightly in a fist
Around the golden stem pulsating with life, you pulled.
You pulled on that lonely idol but it would not budge 
No amount of cursing or brute force 
Could remove this lone beauty 
From the desolate field of decay.
The petals could not be  disheveled,
roots uprooted, stem disturbed, life destroyed

But you would not give up
Your subconscious code overwritten by savagery.
An innocent child turned monster.
By the time you realised your mistake it was too late
The same noise that greeted your arrival 
has also sealed your fate
It was the squealing of a pig at slaughter 
It was the gate

The gate from which you came, 
heading back to the life you left behind
The gate closes, never to be reopened
You now know what is to come of your mislead life
You raise your hand to the grey sky 
One last time in a silent salute
With the dry dead air 
stealing the life from inside you, you collapsed
You have at last arrived in your rightful place
Among the bones

Sadness

by Broken Hearted

I'm crying on the inside,
Where no one can hear me.
Hoping for that brighter day to come.
Trying not to show any of my emotions.
Trying day by day to keep the smile
That will not last long upon my face,
To keep me from crying.
People hurting me from left to right.
But I can only trust one person.
Who actually cares and understands my pain.

Who Knows

by Jessi M.

And for the life of me
I don’t know what’s worse,
not having you
or knowing I never will.
Somehow I’ve got to get you
out of my head,
out of my heart.
when you left,
you took a chunk of me with you.
I stop to think for a bit
How did it come to this?
How could I let it get this far?
And now I’m left with faded memories
telling a story my lips will never speak.

Masquerade with Death

by Jenny

Here's to the night,
That we'll be dancing in the lights.
Our destiny is written in the stars.

Here's to the nights. 
I will be dancing with death.
Here's to the night,
I will meet the man who wore a mask.

Life Is Short

by Tammy I.

She sees life differently than you 
She knows how short it can be
You haven't seen what she's gone through
Sometimes she wishes you could see

You take one look at her
Never know her story
At the moment everything is a blur
She can't find herself.

All she really knows
Life is short
If only time would have froze
She he'd have some support.

No one knows her well
Very few understand her
Sometimes feeling like she's in a dark cell
She might as well go through hell

She sees life differently 
She understands it's short
Her intent is to treat it gently 
So she lives like there's no tomorrow.

Wings of War

by Sophie A.

The demons pierce my mind, 
And take me to their nightmare 
On wings of war they fly 
They came for me to die 

The angels have fought hard 
To save me from this hell
But who will win this battle? 
I can never tell

If I should die while fighting  
Know this for your sake 
My death was not your fault 
It was never your mistake.

Oh, Sleep

by Anonymous

Oh, lovely quiet Night.
Oh, lovely loud Night.
How you and I fight.

I cannot be without thee, see,
without you I have no sanctuary.
No where to hide, a place to no longer hide.
I trust you and no one else.

If I am up to say goodbye to you one more time, I may break.

Oh, Insomnia.
Oh, lovely Insomnia.
Oh, cursed Insomnia.
Has one complimented you before?

Congratulations. You’ve got me,
my body, my heart, my soul, my mind.
I’m losing my mind to you.

Oh, Sleep, oh, Sleep.
Why am I without Sleep so often?
I swear I love Sleep with all my heart.

And yet I cannot leave Insomnia,
I cannot leave Night for a second more than I do,
and I am separated from my love.

Oh, Love. Do I have you?
I once believed Love was what was closest to you.
Family, friends, God.

But if that was true,
then why the hell am I never asleep?

My Mask

by Jenny

Going through the crowd,
Trying to stand tall and proud.
I moved through a decade.
No one suspects my facade.

Feelings trapped in,
Scarring my skin.
Ripping my heart out wide.
Broken and wishing for someone to be by my side.

This charade i acted upon.
This is my Mask i put on.

Bringing the Rain

by Leah V.

I wait for the day
to quickly come 'round
I wait for the day
to hear the sound.

The sound of affection
Coming from your voice
It is never required
It is done by choice.

I was never enough
to make you proud.
At least, you never told me aloud.

Always disappointed
Always ashamed
It was never you;
My father, you blamed.

Of course, lest I forget,
it was my fault as well.
I could not stay
in your little shell.

I broke out the casing,
broke out of the mold,
my temperature changed,
yet you stayed cold.

When I left, I was free.
Free from the hurt,
free from the pain,
of being treated as dirt.

So many issues,
so many times
We cried and I was forced
to scribe in my rhymes.

All were tense,
all were stressed,
nothing in life
seemed to be blessed.

I left and I see
I see the change,
I see how you act,
and I think it strange.

So many friends
you never had before
So many shells 
washed on the shore.

Closer together
you all became
It is now the sun;
I was the rain.

You never think to call,
not a simple "Hello"
I see, in your rank,
I am well past below.

I keep that in mind,
when I start to miss,
when I start to remember, 
I remember this.

I am sorry for the trouble,
I am sorry for the pain,
I meant no downer
Or to bring the rain.

While your days are sunny,
mine are clear.
I think of this when 
to you I'd like to be near.

Nameless Titles

by Jenny

They call me names
Which none are mine
They call me jock, the cheerleader,
The emo, the stoner, or the nerd.
These are just titles,
They are just labels.
When i walk in the halls today.
I can hear whispering.
Laughing at me.
To them those so called titles are my name.
To them it's either that or i remain nameless.
Afraid to look up,
I went with it.
The jock who is trying hard to fit in.
The cheerleader who is just an insecure girl.
The emo that wishes for a friend.
The stoner trying to take away the all pain.
The nerd who is trying hard to get in college
And not be disappointment.

True Me

by Sophie A.

no one knows 
no one tries 
to see the person i hide inside 
the true me lurks 
inside the dark 
but no one’s tried 
to see my heart 
i'm not looking for pity 
i'm actually fine 
with everyone looking 
at my outer design 
i know that if 
they saw the true me 
they’d never understand 
they might even hate me.

Who I Am

by Anonymous

Time to find out who I am 
And I have got the perfect plan 
You have offered me a way 
To define who I am today 
Inject the light brown liquid
careful not to use too much 
Riding the H train isn't cheap 
it enters my bloodstream now 
Thick blood comes rushing out 
I grin in the face of evil 
addicted though I may be 
This is one way to define me

My Love

by Willow

heart of ice
eyes of steel
body of metal
that no one can heal
you've been hurt too long
you've had to make the sacrifice
when i touch you 
i can feel the ice melt
and your eyes soften
i can hear your heart go on pumpin'
no longer alone
like you thought you were
i’m here for you, in this strange war
i’ll help you up, when you fall
i’ll kill all the demons that climb the wall
i won’t let them hurt you anymore
that's why i'm leaving at your door
i don’t want you to hurt this time
so this is when i close my eyes
and make you see what i came for

No One Understands Us

by Anonymous

No one understands us
but we don't really care
You wrap me in a bear hug 
and stroke fingers through my hair 

I know they didn't expect us 
To fall in love like this 
But I also know that with you 
All i feel is bliss

In a past life we were soul mates 
Not that i can tell 
But i know that you love me 
And i love you as well

Sweet Serenity

by Keerigan

sweet serenity,
her mind has gotten to her again.
so lost, everyone wants her to be found.
she hears my silence, she takes me away
we found each other, buried under scars.
her eyes hold it all in, but her laugh carries her doubts
in syllables of the perfect pitch,
she takes me away, to the places i never thought i could go.
i bleed out her pain,
i’ll bleed out her pain so she wont worry over her locked and lost,
and i just wont let go, i wont let go of her beautiful soul.
don't let me lose that part of me, that part that you brought back.
that part of me that i haven’t once missed until your eyes met mine,
and i’ll love you until the end of time.

Come Out, Come Out (A True Gay Story)

by Jacob L.

Blinded by hormones 
Led on by lust
We knew what we were getting into 
Now look at us,
we're crushed

We kept it a secret
We were hidden in shame
And now that it's all out
Which one of us is to blame?

I fed your confusion
Became your sex puppeteer 
I denied any feelings
To help hide that you were queer

I was no more than an experiment
A test subject in your eyes
But feeling the least bit wanted 
Made me feel so damn alive.

No Smoke

by Rachel

i hid a smoke on the porch
and then it rained
and now it's soaked.
it rained so hard
it washed away
my favorite way to end the day.
the rain will come
and then it goes
it does not care about my woes.
it whips the trees
and wets the streets
it does not care for you or me.
my hair is wet
my face is cold
i wish i had that cigarette.

The Way I Feel

by Selena Y.

Our hearts were in vain.
I fell under your spell.
Our love was in so much pain.
I felt like a tiny visual cell.

I felt like i had to walk away.
I felt so black and blue.
I see you day by day.
I will always want you.

I can't live a lie.
I hate how I'm always denied.
I never hit so hard in love.
I feel like a broken winged dove.

He slowly turned to let me burn.
Your high in the sky.
I think i need to learn.
That i really need to say goodbye.

I never meant to start a war.
I guess i should of just let you win.
I feel like a trap door.
I just wanted to let you in.

You made me exposed.
You made so vulnerable.
I feel like I'm decomposed.
I felt so uncomfortable.

The tears i cry.
I feel so wrecked.
You always have an evil eye.
I feel like an inconvenient subject.

I close my eyes.
And let you go with a crying weep.
I said my goodbyes.
So i could finally fall sleep.

Rough Recognition

by Jacob L.

You said to drop the gimmick
That it's okay just to be myself
I could've used these words a year ago
When I was trying to be somebody else

When I'd trust my heart with strangers
Only to watch it hit the floor
It was the feeling of being wanted
That kept me coming back for more

When happiness wasn't attainable 
and I struggled to find myself
When the "love" no longer was present
I'd find it in somebody else

I was in the midst of a cycle 
How I was feeling, nobody could tell
I would laugh and say it was fun
But in reality I was going through hell

So why can't I wash my hands of you
And clean up the mess that I made
Better yet, who the heck are you?
And why am I feeling this way?

I sleep with a knife in my pillow
Protection from what I can't see
Not once have I ever had to use it
But it keeps me from having bad dreams

So please tell me what I am running from
Making everyday of mine feel like Hell
Well maybe if I took a second to realize
I'm running from nobody but M.Y.S.E.L.F

Teen Mom

by Jacob L.

The remnants of the moonlight
reflect immaculately off her skin
Such a perfection combination of passion
And a bittersweet taste of sin

What lead to the unfortunate happenings
Went down in the bed of a truck
The faults on the hot-headed blonde girl
Who failed to keep her legs shut

He whispers an array of sweet nothings,
And sexual taunts as he nibbles her ear
He removes the remainder of her clothing
Get ready cuz the finale is near

Both juggling on the edge of third base
They talk with there hands and tongues
He caresses her inner thigh softly
In hopes he can hit a home run

He instructs her just to lay back
that it outta be loads of fun
he shoots!
he scores!
-she panics
Cuz now it's Cassie plus one

Like Leaves Upon A Tree

by Jacob Lindell

Like Leaves Upon A Tree,
Over time we dwindle down
We lose our strength and body
Innocent smiles shrivel to frowns

Our complexion begins to  fade
Our extremities start to rot

We slowly succumb to death
Leaving evolution a brand new start.

Standing Here Alone

by Tiffany

as the darkness surrounds me
all i can see is the light coming to get me
every breath-taking moment haunting my inner peace and taking my soul
then i look around, i'm here all alone. no one beside me.
loneliness taking over me because i know what should be.
me and you together, that's what our fate has to decide.
falling apart with every second to take.
not knowing if my love is mine anymore
all that has happened might be a sign.
a sign to let go and be free at peace.
my harmony doesn't exist anymore when your gone.
but when i need you most ...i'm standing here alone.

Soundest of the Sleep

by Jacob L.

Is he still breathing?
Please don't make a peep
You wouldn't wanna wake him,
From the soundest of the sleep

You hear them screaming, can't you?
All the words they could never say
From the mother and drunken father
Who wouldn't give him the time of day

It seems what's done is done
Lord knows he held on good
Put up one hell of a fight
And now he's resting like he should 

It's interesting when your gone,
How quickly you get noticed
Maybe by the time I write this poem
I'll have the guts to show it

So if there's room in heaven
Please make room for just one more
Cuz I've shut my eyes,
And I think it's time
A lucid dreamer I am no more.

Confessions

by Elana

i don't want to lose a moment
i don't want to miss a kiss
sadly i think and end my days like this
my day was never complete unless i heard you say..
"good morning.. good morning, love.
i've waited all night long to sing you this song.
daddy's baby, good morning."
but one day you sopped
i waited for those calls almost everyday

i thought of it today, so i sat there and let it play
the tears running down my face
i was a mess
i tried to stop
because you don't deserve a thing
i wish i could tell you things, but you always seem to busy.

maybe i should just chill out because now i'm feeling dizzy
from crying over everything you've ever put me through
i gathered all the pieces
and glued them one by one
once i saw the final picture i was quite stunned
none of this was my fault
it was you who put me here
in all these hard predicaments and challenges; oh well
i guess i ask too much of you to call me here and there
i only want to hear your voice; is that such a waste of time?
for three minutes in the morning, one day it might save my life
because right now i feel helpless
and i don't know what to do
all because you did something you promised you'd never do

mom's always saying you're a piece of shit
but what am i to say ?
i mean, i am your kid
do i defend you or is it true ?
in all honesty i have no clue
i wish i did tho
maybe then id have some closure
i wouldn't cry as much
over what i think is nothing
but in reality its you
you hurt me
but i wont let you know
no one needs to know how you make me feel sometimes 
i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy
now my words are blurry from the tiny little tears
so surprised i could take it this long; its gone on for years.

Untitled

by Rachel

You were born
And now you live
Always craving
Always searching
Never satisfied.
The more you look
The more you'll find
Your life is shit
And then you'll die.

Belly Up

by RG

a fish or two 
live in the blue,
two fish or three
live in the sea,
three fish or four
have seen the shore,
four fish or five
don't feel alive,
five fish or six
smoke cancer sticks,
six fish or seven
made it to heaven.